After awhile we gave up. She still wouldn't nurse in her room. I got her to nurse in the bedroom while she watched Dave. Then she fell asleep on me there. After 40 minutes I tried to move her to the crib. I knew it was a bad idea. Dave thought it'd work. He was wrong. She was up for good.
I put Dave in charge of Ella while I showered. He got a shower no problem earlier but I was still trying to get my shower in after my run on THURSDAY. I can hear Ella whining and complaining the entire shower. As soon as I'm done I go out to the living room to find Ella playing and Dave sleeping. Well of course she sees me and her complaining turns to straight up crying. I have to wrap the present still and finish getting dressed. Dave turns on music videos for her so I can spend 3 minutes doing everything I need to do. Then Dave tells me how good he was for watching her for me. I complained because 3 minutes versus all day was not good.
When we got home, Dave was playing his video game. We did a phone call with my parents but that was hard because it kept blanking out. I could hear them fine on a hangout but they couldn't hear me at all. The phone call was also tough because Ella was not happy and making noises and not pleasant. She needed food. I needed food. (The party didn't have a meal and I never ate lunch.) Well Dave played his game and I was dealing with everything and it was NOT PLEASANT. To top it off, I think I was getting a blocked duct and it HURT A LOT. Well I made some TV dinner and also fed Ella. She didn't want much. She still complained. I wanted to finish eating. She only calmed down a bit with her cheesy little crunches. I had just opened them. At least I got to finish eating. Then I told Dave it was time for bedtime routine. He didn't believe it. It was after 7 PM by this point. I actually think I told him a few times before he even heard me because of his game.
Well we did bedtime routine and Ella was in freak out cry mode because she was too tired. Then 2 minutes into nursing she fell asleep.
When I put her in her crib and came out to the living room that's when Dave asked if I wanted a frozen pizza. I'm not sure he even realized I ate 2 things that I made earlier. I agreed though. We finished watching the Lego Movie that we started watching 2 weekends earlier. I fell asleep right after it was over. It was definitely before 9 PM. I slept on the couch a little then heard crying. I thought it was Ella but it was something on the TV. That startled me enough and once I figured out it wasn't Ella, I went into bed and went to sleep.
Overall I was mad at Dave all day for not helping with Ella enough. (While typing this post Ella was near me and she was fine until that last sentence and she kept hitting delete. I guess she didn't want me to complain.) I've had a bad time the past few weeks with naps with Ella. It all started with when we were sick and I would let her nap on me because I was too weak to even try to get her to the crib. Then she always wants to nurse while sleeping which I call a boob nap. She wakes up if I take it away and won't go back to sleep. Then she's also super cranky and I'm the one to deal with it all day because Dave gets home just barely before she goes to bed or after she goes to bed. Then I just started spoiling her letting her do it if we had plans because I didn't want her super cranky. But this meant for weeks I only had about 3 naps total in the crib so I can never get ANYTHING DONE. I can't shower. I can't do anything. I can't prep. I can't clean. I can't put away stampin' up stuff. I can't start planning my next class. I'm just a big whiner but it is really hard. When we are at the park and socializing with others, Ella is always so good. People don't even think she can ever be cranky. They don't know. I need a vacation. I need a few hours of break but I don't get it at all. It's wearing me down. I also feel like I can't complain about it because moms can't complain. That's the perception. Many many many moms tell me how moms need time out and I should be having a night out or few hour break. But then other people think or say the opposite. In general moms have to do it all and are expected to do so much. I'll stop whining more but I was going to link to some articles I read recently referring to things I talked about but who has time for that. I can't believe Ella actually played while I typed this post. You know it's been bad when I have not had daily posts not even a post with 1 video or 1 picture. (I typed this all the morning of 10/12 but it will be awhile before I can get pictures uploaded so who knows when it will actually get posted.)