Thursday, September 20, 2012


My days are all the same anymore.

I go days without showering. I go days without realizing I go days.

I went to sleep at 11:30 AM today and woke up at 12:30 am.  It is 4:15 PM now and my lunch is in the microwave. I did have some cookies that I don't even like for a snack.

In the past week I did get dressed in my running clothes (including my shoes and putting my hair up) and still didn't go run.

I've gone a couple days without even brushing my hair.  I can't even remember if I brushed my teeth this morning.

I do like a lot of TV. That takes my mind off of not having a job but then I get nothing done and get more depressed about getting nothing done.


  1. You hang in there Colleen. I'm going on four months now looking for a job so I sure can relate to you. Everyday it gets harder and harder to get yourself moving and it's worse when the "No Thank-You" emails come in from the application that I've sent. So what I'm doing now is forcing myself to stay positive by finding something everyday to do. I'm runing more than before, reading more and the house sure is clean.
    You got 68 followers on your Blog and I'm sure we all hope for the best for you. Keep your chin up and keep Blogging why it's one of my highlights reading about what's going on in the world of Colleen.
    Take Care.

  2. I second what Edward said. Don't lose sight of your life. Sure all day TV marathons are great sometimes, but not every day. Make it a priority to get up early, take a shower, get dressed, and do something productive each day. Try volunteering doing something you care about (like at an animal shelter or something). Good luck to you :)

  3. Both of the people above have some good suggestions, and I agree with them.

    I wish there was something more I could do. I think it would be good to find something to do for yourself that gets you out and about.


  4. I'm glad that my description I give when I talk about your life is fairly accurate.

    1. I used to get dressed and leave the house more. The constant TV watching has only been the past few weeks.

  5. Dear Colleen: your blog has always been one of my favorites, so this post made me sad. I know how it feels to be bored and lonely in a new city. Can you get any kind of job at Google? Maybe Dave can help you. Also, try to take at least one community sponsored class. I take tennis. You can start as a beginner in many types of activities. It gives you somewhere to go, you meet other beginners, and you have to practice. Maybe a short visit to your folks would help. That is one good reason to be unemployed - you can go. If you like to travel by yourself (I do) you could take the train down the coast to San Diego and back. It's a beautiful trip. Hope you feel better soon.


  6. I'm so sorry to hear your having a rough time! When we moved to NC it took Nathan four months to find a decent job, and it was stressful and depressing for both of us. Hang in there! I agree with the above posters - don't give up, make an effort to have a schedule that includes getting dressed, taking outfit photos, etc, and use this time to learn something new or pursue a hobby you've never had time for. Most of all, don't give up! We're all rooting for you and I know you'll be fine in the end. xoxo