so i sent an e-mail to the friend who is the one who prompted me to make the post a little while ago about if i expect too much from my friends. i used to get 20+ e-mails from her a day and now i'm getting like 4 a week max and the ones i get are very very short. about as long as my last post. so last night i got up the nerve to e-mail her about this and ask if she meant to be pushing me away and how it was really bothering me. i sat there for like 20 minutes without sending it. i almost didn't send it at all. then i did send it... we'll see if i get a response. it's not that just fewer e-mails but there is no hanging out. she'd even ignore my questions and i never heard anything about her life. it was like they moved (and i helped for many hours) and then slowly she falls off the face of the earth. and it hurts. ugh
i need more friends that i'm close to so that when something happens with one then i might not notice or something.
my only friend here is daniel.
ReplyDeletewell, and now snowboarding sean.
there really is no one else.
i think i'm more of a hermit than you, though, so it's possible that i mind less?
but based on your LJ posts people visit you and have hung out with you and you go places and hang out with people. that is more than i do. unless you count me hanging out w/ mike's friends when i visited him.
ReplyDeletethe only time anyone does anything w/ me outside of work (besides dave) are coworkers and that's when i'm cooking them dinner and giving them free food or when i'm spending hours helping them move. nobody really seems to care about me or wants to just hang out w/ me. also this rarely happens. there have been like 4 dinners over the past few months. then i saw people at my wedding which shouldn't even count. and then in july i went to brunch with betsy and laura. and then in may i went to dinner with them. then in march i went to dinner with them. then the last was christmas for my christmas party and when you came. oh around may june or july i went to 2 different baseball games with a few coworkers but i organized it all and asked them when they wanted to go since they'd never been to pnc park and then i bought the tickets and they paid me for them.
oh i guess i did see a few friends but only after much bugging. and i saw them when they were getting free furniture from my gram. we were there, they finally showed up late, they got the furniture and left. oh and they complained about how her place is and how it's old and scary and like a "fun house" and didn't give a thank you or anything. i hate people...but i'm depressed when i'm not around people.
Listen. Everyone sucks. When I'm home, yinz're the only ones I hang out with. So then you'll have someone to hang out with. And so will I. How 'bout that one person who just up and left to Coloradi. She's fun to hang aht with but she's all the way aht there. She probably hates us, anyway.
ReplyDeleteOh, not everyone sucks. People on B&B are quite nice. Especially Mama Bear. I talk to her the most.
ReplyDeleteyea people don't hate me until they've met me. if only i had message boards that i posted on or read. then i could have friends.
ReplyDeleteyou aren't home enough. you don't like to drive to our apt.
ReplyDeleteshe replied to me. then i replied back and specifically did not reply to everything and i still wrote 1396 words back to her.
ReplyDeleteYou need to get a job at the Westing hahse and move to cranburr.
ReplyDeleteshe was even at her parents house for a whole month this summer and i didn't know until the last day that she was home!
ReplyDeletehe can just move into our house and pay us rent. mommy doesn't think he'd ever do this. she thinks he wants to live at home w/ them.
ReplyDeleteI told her a thousand times I don't want to live at home with them. I'd rather pay rent somewhere close to home than live there. Unless I get my own bathroom. That I can junk up all I want.
ReplyDeleteHey Callous, I'm reading this emu back from the broad Colleen sent it to, and it sounds just like your emus of why you're never available for talking or chatting or emus or anything. So I know how Colleen feels. I wonder how it feels to be on your/the broad's end of it. Probably pretty good.
ReplyDeleteyou didn't seem to like my e-mail after her rebuttal e-mail but then you did like my ps where i told her she's rude. i'm so awful. she's never going to talk to me again.
ReplyDeleteOut of the two of us, you're the only one who hasn't sent a return to the most recently sent letter.
ReplyDeleteI'm tryna give you time to get all your social obligations out of the way without having to worry about reading and writing letters, so maybe we can communicate on AIM or the phone like normal people. I called you tonight to see what your excuse was for not being able to talk, but you didn't answer. So I'll guess that you're gonna make up that you left your phone in your car or at a restaurant.
ReplyDeleteYou know, I've never once lied to you about those things.
ReplyDeleteI left it in my house, and was playing bluegrass. Allow me to reiterate that I don't have to answer to you, and I don't owe you an explanation as to where I am in relation to my phone. Anyone who actually knows me, knows I am genetically predisposed to a) be late for everything, and b) lose important stuff all the time.
In my experience, people who tend to be the most suspicious of others' potential to lie, base that suspicion on their own potential to lie. So I guess you ougtta think of that before the next time you accuse me of not telling the truth about something, because to date, I've never been dishonest with you, ever.
I ain't suspicious of your lyin' to me, I was just jaggin' ya cuz I know you've done that to OTHERS!
ReplyDeleteYou know what they say. Someone who's nice to you but rude to the waiter is not a nice person.
Anyway, I ate a bag of chips and a pahnda sahr cream yesterdee and am groin to a buffet today.
- I'm NOT rude to the waiter!
ReplyDelete- Good.