Thursday, December 1, 2016


I was so tired at each wake-up in the night. I tried hard to not fall asleep when nursing to get more time sleeping in the bed but then I'd get back to bed and not be ready to fall asleep.
Around 7 I got into bed and got comfy just as Miles started crying again so I decided to hold him and let him sleep. Plus Dave would be noisy getting ready anyway.    Ella woke up and I heard so I put him in the crib.  Then I came out and mentioned Ella going to school. She was so upset. Dave didn't realize she was going and so he told her she was home with me. Plus he said he would have woken her earlier if he knew he had to get her to school.  My doctor appointment was changed so her school day was changed.

Once they left, I ended up nursing again and then letting Miles sleep on me. I should have been getting ready for the doctors. I changed his diaper and we headed out. I barely got ready.  He was awake there.  He cried a lot and I ended up having to nurse him during my appointment. I vaguely remember doing the same with Ella.  On a side note, I have to go to PT for my knee and people said Miles is so little and to take him and leave him in the stroller. I can't see that happening. So far he wasn't content today, he was OK at my knee appointment, and Ella was not content every time I tried to take her.

I am OK to exercise now. Except my knee is bad so I still can't do things that involve the knee.

After the doctor, I stopped at the gas station. Miles cried the entire time I was pumping.
Then he fell asleep. I went to Target. He was awake as soon as i got the carseat out of the car. I looked for nursing camis/tanks and bought one. Then I got stuff on my list. He was awake for all of it. In line checking out, I picked the worst line and we were in line forever. He fell asleep as I was paying!

 I got home and put away the groceries and went to go to the bathroom. That is when he woke up.  After I nursed him, I tried to eat lunch myself. It was difficult. He wasn't content in any position for more than a second. He cried in the swing and the bouncer.  It was not a fun time.

A little after 3 he fell asleep. I was holding him in the chair. He woke up once briefly and nursed and back to sleep. I slept for an hour and was so uncomfortable when I woke up. It took me quite some time to get my foot off the ottoman.  He was still asleep. I changed his diaper and he was still asleep. I loaded him into the car and he was still asleep.  I used the stroller to pick Ella up and he stayed asleep in preschool. I got him back into the car and he was still asleep. Then we get home and I go to run some stuff in the house before getting Miles out and Ella flips out yelling "Don't forget Miles" and she also wakes him up. He just opened his eyes but then she said he was awake and she got all up in his face in the carrier trying to hug him and then he was up for good.

I was not a happy camper.  We all get inside and Ella immediately finds the cookies I left out from earlier. After a long battle with her telling her they were for after dinner, I gave in and gave her one as long as she ate it at the table and let me nurse Miles.  I go to nurse Miles and it takes him 5 minutes before he even wants to eat.

Then I tried to prepare dinner and deal with Miles. He was not happy in the swing. He was not happy in the bouncer. He was not happy in a position for more than a minute.  I tried to get Dave to get home from work but he never wants to leave anymore.

We eat dinner even thought at one point I'm holding Miles like he's flying because that's the only way he's content and Ella is also sitting on my lap. Clearly I wasn't eating much!

At 7:30 I started nursing Miles.  Ella is watching TV and using her iPad but that doesn't stop her from trying to come in and bug me. I talk her into getting her iPad and sitting in the nursery with us.  But then that doesn't last long and she says she has to go potty. While I'm still nursing we walk to the bathroom and I get her situated. I give her her iPad and go back to nursing.  She's in there. I nurse. He falls asleep. Then Dave gets home.   He says "I don't know what you are complaining about. You have everything under control."  I'm pretty sure he's trolling me but it still bugs me because I suffer through it all and then he gets home. He even wanted me to turn on the oven and put a pizza in for him. I said no that I was nursing.

Ella was so cute when she came out of the bathroom saying she needed help wiping.

When he went to sleep at 8 I figured he'd wake back up at 8:15 or 8:30 but he did not.  I ended up sending 45 minutes cleaning up in the kitchen and putting things away.

While I was cleaning, Ella found the cookies I had left in the living room. I ate them right after I got Miles to sleep.  I tried to cover them up with my ring sling but she found them right away.

We started to get Ella to bed at 9:30 and she is queen of stalling and it was 10 PM before she was in her room and staying in there.

Dave and I finally started to watch Quantico.  He always falls asleep and he did again. He was even doing back exercises on the floor and next thing I know he was snoring. I watched the rest of the episode and Netflix started playing the following one. Dave finally woke up and stopped in 22 minutes into it! He can easily catch up at night when I'm nursing (if he's home).  I just wanted to watch more.  I kind of want to google and spoil it because we are still in season 1.
I started blogging a little. I ordered a photo backdrop stand.

I was up until 1.  Miles woke at midnight and I was slow going in and then I get in there and he's asleep and snoring. I stare at him for 5 minutes and decide to change his diaper and feed him since I was there and awake.  He didn't nurse for long though. And for some reason I was so wide awake that I was still up until 1.

11 Weeks (11.26.16)

Miles changed a lot this week so I decided to do another weekly post but a super quick one.
Miles has become much more pleasant. When he's awake in the middle of the night, he's pleasant. He will be pleasant during his awake time.
He's sleeping better. He's napping a little longer and definitely fewer 10 minute naps.  He's sleeping better at night. He's consistently having a pretty long stretch and then another good stretch.  Although he is staying awake longer when he is awake.
He's patient when I'm trying to do something. He will play on his play mat while I do knee exercises for 40 minutes!  He has also just chilled in his swing while I clean in the kitchen or chill in his other swing while I do knee exercises.  He even chilled in his bouncer while Dave and I were on our computers for about an hour!
Ella is also aggravating him less. He's less on super high alert when she's around so that helps with him being more pleasant. Ella likes to share her toys with him.

I feel like Dave being on vacation and then off for the holidays helped. Dave always has on the TV. I think maybe that helps. The noise might be good. I will have to try that.

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Halloween Costume Comparison

We don't just wear 1 costume a year and we don't just dress up on Halloween. These aren't even all the times Ella has worn her costume. She wore that cupcake one a couple dozen times.
Here are a few pictures of Miles. He had a borrowed bat costume but we never put it on him. It's too hard to have it on him and have him in the Ergo or in the carseat.

2014: Cupcake & Ballerina
2015: Witch, Genie, Cupcake, Pumpkin
2016: Skye

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Transformation Tuesday

I have taken many pictures over the years to show my progress. I always hope the changes are for the better.  I wanted to capture this collage. It's different than any other physical transformations I've been able to capture.   The picture on the left is just before I got pregnant. Then I'm almost 9 months pregnant in the picture in the middle.  On the right I'm 2 months postpartum. I hope that I get back to the picture on the left. We shall see how it goes!  Usually I take these pictures and I have to analyze to even see a difference. I shared some collages once before on here.

I feel like everyone should take pictures from front, side, and back to compare to some other points. Don't wait for something to trigger pictures, take them every few months.

Monday, November 28, 2016


 Miles asleep in his crib
 Look how precious.
 Ella loves Miles.
He was asleep so she got to hold him for a bit. I asked her how long she wanted to hold him for and she said "forever."  She surprisingly held him for a full 25 minutes!

Ella was even was all over us when we were in the other room. She just wants Miles all the time.

 Poly joined us.

Miles had his first doctor appointment.
 He slept so much through the appointment. I was amazed.

 Miles actually likes the swing!

Angie and Jaden stopped by for a few minutes. Angie got to meet Miles and Ella got to play with Jaden a little.

Ella Chased Jaden around. They had so much fun circling through.  Then Ella would catch him and they'd do it again.

Ella is a helper. She stands on a step stool during diaper changes. (Well it was a plastic bin at first then it tipped so I got an actual step stool in there.)
Miles is in his crib and Ella still wants to be close to him.
Here's what I look like. Poly was ruining my picture.