i don't want to go to sleep. i don't want to be awake. i'm getting sick of actions of some people (even if these actions happened awhile ago and i just learned about them recently). i'm not sure what to do. i don't feel like doing anything at the moment. i keep fighting tears. i have so much to do. i have many things that i want to get done but i just don't want to do any of them. i wish it was a week ago. i wish i was able to relax.