on a more positive note

my giving blood bruises are gone.
big brother 6 started tonight.
i might be able to eat foods that require chewing in the future.
only one more day of work this week, then only 4 next week (even though i like work but i'm not too happy about the waking up early all the time part).
going out tomorrow night.


but most of those have their faults too but i should quit thinking about them.  like tomorrow night i can't seem to get anyone to actually be able to join us.

Russ never called me back

75% chance i'll get 75% better  with either surgery supposedly. i'm afraid to read on-line about them cuz i saw 2 websites and they both say how awful surgery is.

that stupid dr kept making me open my mouth so it hurt and he even told me to open wider and make it hurt more  so he coudl feel it. but boy just sitting here my mouth hurts like nobodys business.  i ate a baked potato - the skin + lots of butter to make it soft and bread adn butter and pb sandwich.  the folded bread was a chore to eat cuz i had to open my mouth "so wide"

jaw

arthrocentesis is the one i'm getting done.  arthroscopic is another one. it's a little better but overall at least 4x as expensive

july 15 = no work = sucks

because i go straight from the asthma dr to the jaw dr to get some jaw surgery that the insurance doesnt pay for.

the pirate game sucked

a name

i think i should name my car max.  what do you think.  it's so uncreative it's almost perfect. c and max could be a girl's name or a guy's name so which should it be?

i worked 10.5 hours today. so i made up 1 hour for yesterday. and already started making up the time i'll miss on thursday for the dr.

fireworks aren't that good. i think the only thing that could make the fourth not suck is a good party.

happy 4th

i havea  cute skirt on today. now i just need to go somewhere. where should i go?

i just watched poker on tv since sometime before dinner. o man it was boring.

nap

everytime i eat i want to take a nap (and most of the time i do)

interrupting my sleep

last night i fell asleep through the last 40 minutes of th enotebook. i'm old i can't stay up past midnight watching movies. then after falling asleep upstairs, fireworks wake me up. argh for the neighbors.

malibu

today

the arts and heritage festival was pretty boring but i sort of liked getting out.

my mom is trying to make me cook dinner but so far i've had her do all the work except i got out the pot.

this message is for russ since he's not on aim: someone told me u need to clean out your engine bay more 

pictures!

timmy uploaded some pictures

so did i

different pictures of course

dream

we were at school. for some reason I moved a lot of my stuff into Chrissy's room/apt. so i had tons of stuff to move out. then moving out daddy came up and there was the van, the cavalier, and pb's car. but see the "school" we were moving out and the area was  like the area around gram's but it was still the poly as the school. but timmy was there and a mysterious older brother, who wasn't mike. and i still had classes so we had to pause packing and stuff.  then the cavalier was stolen cuz my older brother left the keys in it or something. i was in class so he was unpacking his stuff somewhere. but the weird thing was i had this remote/cell phone looking thing that was something that belonged to the car. i was trying to use it to figure somethign out and it didn't wlcome me it welcomed a Brian H H.  but then the enxt try my thing was totally disabled. so whoever stole the car was reprogramming stuff but then locked me out. there was some more packing and loading into cars and i couldnt get a hold of chrissy to get my stuff out of her place. i was trying to call her but her cell phone wasn't active anymore. i was trying to figure out if she went home for a few days or not. but then we went to her apt anyway and she had most of my stuff in this little entry way into her house so we could pack up most of my stuff without her. i was trying to figure out what was still inher place but i woke up. cuz it was all crazy. like before class i had packed up most of my stuff in her place, but i left a pile in th emiddle of the floor of stuff i didnt' have time to move before class  but none of that was what she had in her entryway waiting for me to take.

my away message of earlier: with Dave/PB/JR/Lead

we got him a birthday cake today and fake sang and he blew out candles.