i really am very miserable. so miserable that i made phone calls today to movers just to get out of doing work. like seriously i hate the phone. i have no ambition anymore. the one thing i liked my manager made me give up because most groups rotate this task after about a year. even though nobody in teh group wanted to do it. and she basically forced someone to do it. and he complains all the time about hating to do it.
i still have my eye twitch. that's been a few months. it's not as bad lately. almost not as bad since i applied for a new job because now there is hope to get out of the group.
also i was talking to dave asking him why the past few months i'm never fulfilled when eating and i just want to eat and he said that's because i hate work and that's how he was.
even when i'm home enjoying myself i'm not because of the thought of work the next day. sundays are actually the worst. i know i have a full week ahead of me. i just dread the entire day knowing the later in the day it is the closer i am to work.
Are you applying for a new job at the Westinghouse or what? I hate everything. I think my Tuesdays and Fridays throw me off because I have too much time off, so I'm never in school mode. If you have a lot of homework, you just do it, but if you have a little, you just put it off.... I should have taken more credits. I want to die. There's something in Albany tomorrow night for this one IME's fight. He wont some martial arts match, and they're having a party for him. Wings and beer. One kid said he's going and has 4 seats for others. I might take him up on it, pay for 3 others to get cabs home, and bi the driver lots of beer, so I can die on the way home.
ReplyDeletei applied for one within westinghouse. but it's one that wants 8- 10 years experience but the manager told me to apply and unless i look really good for my age he must not care about the experience requirement. someone else recommended me to him.
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