i really am very miserable. so miserable that i made phone calls today to movers just to get out of doing work. like seriously i hate the phone. i have no ambition anymore. the one thing i liked my manager made me give up because most groups rotate this task after about a year. even though nobody in teh group wanted to do it. and she basically forced someone to do it. and he complains all the time about hating to do it.
i still have my eye twitch. that's been a few months. it's not as bad lately. almost not as bad since i applied for a new job because now there is hope to get out of the group.
also i was talking to dave asking him why the past few months i'm never fulfilled when eating and i just want to eat and he said that's because i hate work and that's how he was.
even when i'm home enjoying myself i'm not because of the thought of work the next day. sundays are actually the worst. i know i have a full week ahead of me. i just dread the entire day knowing the later in the day it is the closer i am to work.