oh so at work right before leaving i wanted to pay some money to my student loan because that always cheers me up. i even logged on. but we're trying to save so i didn't do it. but i'm going to do it now. only a small payment. i get the same satisfaction as long as it's more than the amount of interest i accrued since the last payment.

awfulness

last night: power went out and broke my power cord for my laptop. it was in a power strip/surge protector but it still broke it

today: i woke up and thought i should take a vacation day. i didn't.
dave thought we should drive separately because he said he didn't want to work late and knew i would (i disagreed with him and told him i wouldn't)
then my computer is super slow and retarded the third day in a row. word crashes multiple times.
my computer just hated me.
adobe would quit responding
other times adobe just magically closed
i tried to use excel and type in equations. those equations would work but dragging the equation dragged the letters and numbers for the equation but the answers weren't actually answers. i spent forever trying to fix that. then i decided to save even though i thought that would mess things up since i had been using the file previously. well saving it magically made all the cells with equations work correctly. too bad i wasted half hour on 2 min of work.
then word crashed again
then what do you know when adobe is breaking again i accidentally click no to save a recovered file. well bye bye 2 days worth of work.
it also took me 4 hours today to do 10 minutes worth of updating 2 word files and making 2 PDFs.

so i didn't start redoing my 2 days worth fo work yet. it should be quicker this time since i already kind of know where in the documents i looked for certain inputs. but i still worked 1:45 extra tonight. even if ididn't lose 2 days worth of working printing the pdfs still wasted more time than the extra time that i worked

update: i forgot to mention that i was not receiving all e-mails. i only learned at the end of the day when someone asked me about it. he had sent me 3. i didn't get any.

how could i lose papers in 3 days. they should be on my desk (well table beside desk). it's making me so mad. i've been trying to find them all night.

oh at cmu at the meet and greet with my mentee, some professors talked to us. they thought i was a freshman.

i barely got any sleep. but i got so little that i'm not even tired.

i made it to cmu and back. the mix and mingle among engineers wasn't as good as i had hoped.

i shouldn't have just started another episode of brothers and sisters. after this one there is only 1 more. this is not good.

i finished season 1 of brothers and sisters. last night i was on episode 4. there were 23 episodes in the season. but i was missing 3 of them.

now it's time to eat. i only grabbed a small brownie earlier. we were going to leave for dinner at 4:30 and somehow i managed to keep watching another episode.

Sunday

so i finally took my shower. nothing like starting the day at 1:15. well i'm still in my robe. i was thinking of exercising before the shower but when i do that i always get lightheaded...because that also relates to running before eating breakfast. i swear almost every morning when i get out of bed and attempt to make the bed i black out and have to crouch down. i really want to watch brothers and sisters again. i should start laundry now. i keep telling dave he needs more clothes so i can go longer than a week without doing laundry. well and i tell him he should do the laundry himself. like 80% of every load is his stuff. he wears too many clothes too. he changes after work everyday and uses another set of clothes.

i guess i can look on the bright side in that i can't find my to do list so i don't really know all the stuff i'm forgetting to do.

sunday really is my least favorite day of the week. it has been since middle school or elem school. i don't enjoy my "day off" knowing i have a full week ahead of me of working/school.

ack

i kept making all my posts for friends only and didn't mean to.

yesterday i got a paper cut and knew it was a bad one. it hurt worse than others i remember getting. well then the paper cut woke me up in the middle of the night from hurting. it's all red. i put neosporin and a bandaid on it now. hope it helps.

also i got addicted to watching brothers and sisters last night and think i watched about 10 episodes. it was roughly 6:00am when i went to sleep.

i've just been lunging around today (well after we went to lowe's and sam's club). it's been nice. but now i feel like i had way more stuff i wanted to do on my to do list. you know the stuff i've had on for weeks and never got to it.

i watched the 2nd harry potter movie tonight. this makes it the 2nd time i've seen it. i've never see any of the other ones. i've also never read the books.

gram had surgery yesterday. the doctor said she is doing alright. her mind isn't with it and she kept not knowing she was in the hospital. she was also getting so worked up about having ot feed my aunt's dog. she wouldn't listen to us to not worry about it.

i hate how i'm so tired all the time.
i hate how myspace takes entirely too long to load.

i had another training today with the Sarah from norwin. i went and talked to her for like 10 minutes on one of our breaks.

i spent like 350 bucks today on my car. inspection, oil change, and stuff with the brakes. i don't think my car likes being driven rarely and when it's driven it only drives for 3 minutes.

today

i did laundry this morning. i went through some old clothes (but not all of the clothes from the den closet). i cut Dave's hair. I used to george foreman to make chicken. i also made parsley red potaotes and corn. then i ate chips with dip. then i went to aunt elaine's and visited gram and them. i ate some there too. not as much as normal.

clothes

i was going through some clothes in the den closet and found light blue express pants. they don't fit as nicely in the waist but the hips and thighs are perfect. they are almost too big in the waist. and by waist i mean at my hip bones. i like pants that low. my gut can just go right over them. i also found other pants from high school. they fit but go too high on my waist so instead of moving them yet another time (since i haven't worn them since high school), i'm going to give them to goodwill.

sigh

i've been slacking at making a post daily.
i've also been slacking at remembering to weigh myself.
then when i do remember i forget to write it down and it never makes it to the graph. i
today iw eighed 125.6. i didn't put it on the graph yet though.

Saturday

we went to the homeshow in monroeville this morning. i'd say it was mostly not worth it. we got some pamphlets and some pricing on stamped concrete and some info on retaining walls. that's about it. i thought it'd have more stuff. it cost money to get in. perhaps if we already had our house it would have been more interesting. i did learn that we should upgrade our windows. they had different vinyl floor examples but i didn't feel like looking. i do know they have some nice ones. then we toured a windsor. it only has drywall. she'll call us again when it has cabinets in it. it's so much nicer than i thought. it was a mirror image of the floor plan. it was cold in there that it was rough looking. i wish we'd get a list of all hte extras and all the prices and work from there. we keep seeing or learnign about additional extras and then our job of what to pick is much harder, but i'd hate to learn later that there was more out there that we didn't even realize.

between the home show and the tour, we went to springfield grill. it was fancier than i expected. i liked my chicken ceasar salad.

after the windsor tour we toured the model in that plan. the Oxford was amazing. the upstairs was awesome. and by upstairs i mean the floor furthest up. there was a floor above the main floor and then a floor above that.

after the model we came back here and watced CNN. My parents were here and watching the election results with us. they left around 9:30PM.

Dave needs to figure out why he cant' print from his computer anymore. it prints nonsense letters and numbers and characters. he had a name for this but i forget.

I learned on friday about a discount Westinghouse offers about 1.5% off the base price for heartland homes. we can use that, but we can only use 2 discounts. so right now we're using two but if one is not as good as 1.5% off then we'll switch to the 1.5% off. they should let us do both though :(

random stuff

how come when you move you just lose stuff?

so this morning before my shower i ended up noticing myself in the mirror. man i'm skinny. there's like nothing to my legs. my ribs stick out.

last night at ice skating i ate 3 full plates of food and then 6 cookies. i think i was hungry. my gut got very big after that. we didn't actually skate. we helped the people in charge.

i'm hungry. i don't know what to wear ice skating. i don't think i'll actually do much skating.

dave's back.

the house was perfectly neat for him. it was a huge surprise. he loved it.

i've been left out of the loop for 2 months! i'm supposed to be updated. just remember that.

i'm always so tired. i sleep a lot. i'm kind of not liking this writers strike at all. i want to have TV on.

i almost worked 9 hours today. but i didn't almost get 9 hours worth of work done. it was a long day.

i bought new jeans today. they didn't have the light ones that i wanted so i got medium ones. they'll fade into light ones in no time.

i'm so tired. i feel like it's bedtime

i used the remote for my mac about music for the first time today. i was so confused. but i did get the music on

i spent the evening (well most of the day) with my parents. pb left this morning. he won't arrive in Sweden for a few hours yet.

i found my missing pictures from july and august for my calendar site. they were on my laptop.

i updated my calendar site but i haven't fully updated it. i still have to add the pictures of me that i took when i was somewhere so they are filed with that event.

i went to the dentist today. i brought some wedding pictures. i saw my dad's cousin. every time i go there i see someone i know.

i got the reaction i expected but not the reaction i was hoping for about my afghan. tons of people thought it was awesome but the mom to be didn't seem to like it.

i finished the afghan. it's not as long as i wanted. oh well. i guess it's good. it's too rectangle. if it wasnt' as wide then it'd look nicer.

dreams

this morning (between hitting snooze) i had a dream about picking out my clothes and getting ready for work. so when i woke up getting ready was easy. i just wore what i already picked out.

2 nights ago i had a dream. it was more like a nightmare. i had 2 weddings to go to in 1 day. and they were back to back. well my camera batteries were dead and i couldn't take any pictures at either wedding. it was so upsetting.

afghan is 30x40 currently.

all i did was watch CNN tonight.

oi

i stayed up too late last night. i went to bed at 4:30 but couldn't even fall asleep until after 5:15. the last i remember seeing the clock was 5:18. then the alarm went off at 7:15. now i normally hit snooze and fall back to sleep. today i did not fall back to sleep.

another thing updated!

http://colleen.akwire.net/_clothes/ - roughly 90% updated since Nov. there are still pictures on my camera and there are also pictures that have me in them on certain days that i need to crop down.

i can't believe how long i've been sitting here in my robe. i should get dressed. i just printed my to do list for the day.

i started using my picasa gallery again. well except that now i actually use the one for the e-mail address that i currently use.

i also updated my weight graph

it was not a good idea to take a shower before eating.

also i had to dig for my inhalers today.

i had to stop after 18 min on the treadmill today because i got lightheaded.

i seem to be addicted to watching CNN lately

i'm almost 2/3 of the way done with the afghan. the second skein is almost done. i couldn't stay awake last night to just finish it.

a three day week was pretty nice at work.

my 20 minute nap turned into a 3 hour nap

sleep

well last night i couldn't fall asleep for over an hour and a half and then when the alarm went off this morning at 10 i couldn't managet to wake up. i just woke up now. going back to work is going to be ROUGH.

oh boy

i stayed up too late.
also why is it that every time i try to clean off my table it gets messier?

i just woke up from a nap. i was sitting there on the couch. i wasn't even lying down. dave said i was out maybe 45 minutes but i think it was longer than tha based on the current time and based on the time last things happened.

no matter waht i do my digital picture frame is making me mad. it doesn't work right or how the directions say it should. then i got my spare sd card since it won't do a slide slow from my usb drive and well nothing i copy onto there shows up on the frame at all. i must be retarded.

sigh

i just vacuumed the main floor and then put the vacuum cleaner away so nicely only to realize i didn't vacuum the steps and they are the worst. our garland likes to shed "berries"

how can something be sealed in plastic and then still smell like smoke when i open it. it's a picture frame that we got as a gift that was in a smokers house.

i tried so hard to wake up at 10 today. i failed. i just finally got out of bed. for 20 minutes i was sitting up in bed. but for the rest of it i was fighting staying awake and failing.

my thumb is sore and stiff from crocheting. i'd say i'm almost 30% of the way done with this afghan. i finished 1 skein. i have 3. perhaps i'll be 33% done and make the afghan shorter.

i thought last year was eventful. but i think this year was too. last year i started at Westinghouse and got engaged.

this year i got married and i put money down to build a house.

i think i ate too much stuffed* yesterday. last night my stomach was killing me and i kept thinking i was going to throw up.

*stuffed from stuffed cabbage. but i don't eat the cabbage.

today we tried to buy curtains. we failed.

then we tried to buy some Christmas trays on sale. we failed at that. but i did buy some Chrsitmas tins so now i don't have to ask for the tins back when i give people cookies with tins. we bought a container thing to put our wrapping paper in.

i tried to buy ingredients for pepperoni bread but the super walmart didn't have bread dough.

i tried to buy invitation envelopes (aka the envelopes that i use for the cards that I make) and i couldn't find them. this is my 3rd trip to walmart and they don't have them. maybe i'm looking in the wrong places or maybe they stopped carrying them.

last night i calculated it out and it'll take me over 40 hours to finish the baby afghan i'm making (for a baby shower i'm going to on January 13).

so Betsy's wedding got moved based on travel arrangaments and now it's not in Kenya and it's here in like 3 days. looks like her gift isn't going to get made. i thought i had until the end of january when they had a reception. now i'm all confused.

i have to clean up and i really want to make this place spotless and get rid of all the junk but it never works. i need more cupboards for food.

we saw the remodeled dunkin donuts on our way home today and i went and used my coupon and got munchkins. my bill was 5.88 and i had a 10 and a 1 and wanted a 5 and change back but the guy gives me bck my 1 and gives me 4 ones. i didn't tell him. i just let him go and think i was the stupid one. now i have about 8-10 ones in my wallet.

i bought masking tape today so when i pack a box or put Christmas stuff in a box i can label it. all our boxes have been labeled a few times so now i know the masking tape labeling will be the most current. all the rest are just sharpie on the box.

update: correction now i have 16 ones in my wallet. i guess i should have counted first but i didn't feel like giving the guy a lot of ones. sigh.

now i just woke up from a 3 hour nap.

we just spent 2 solid hours cleaning up and being productive. i ironed 8 shirts and 2 pairs of pants. a lot of what we cleaned was in the basement. we still have tons to go. and i mean tons.

the visit to dave's family was a lot better this year. but i still hate hate hate coming home and having every single thing we took smelling like smoke. i need to remember to wear an old coat. i'm trying to air mine out right now. they didn't smoke around us and they think that solves the problems but when they smoke then come hug us or when they used to smoke in all the rooms and then they just stop when we visit the room still smells of smoke.

i had a fiasco with making pizzelles tonight

first i can't find the recipe from the box or gram's. i keep it all in the box so i was very upset. then i find the recipe on the floor. it must have flown out. then i get out the eggs (need to be room temp) and the butter. the butter has to be melted then cooled. then i leave that alone. i come back and get the rest of the ingredients out only to learn that we do not have enough flour.

but since i know gram doesn't really use a recipe i could make do. i had to kind of throw away an eggs wroth. i had all three eggs already in the mixing bowl. then i had to use less butter. it seems to be pretty good. i couldn't do like gram says and test the first one and add more flour if need be because i didn't have any. so i didn't get very many but it's enough to have like a dozen at my parents' house and then take a about 2 dozen to pb's family. i'm not even sure if my gram made any or not for this year.

oh i forgot. when i was trying to organize my bowl, the iron, and the cooling racks i burnt my fingers pretty good. they still hurt. it's been about an hour.

house looking takes a lot of time.

it took me over an hour to fall asleep because of my cold feet. i kept trying to find dave's legs to warm my feet up but i couldn't even get through the covers to get to him.

dave went to sleep 5 or 6 hours before me and he's still asleep.

i stayed up too late cross stitching. i also think it's bad that my feet are numb from being cold.

cookies 'n 'at

i made peanut butter fudge today because it's quick. i'm so behind on the cookies. i dont think i'm actually going to get them in. then this morning i get an im saying that dave's dad is having a birthday party on december 23 and can we be in town for that.

i think i'll make pizzelles since they are also easy and maybe call it quits unless i have time for sure. i'm not making candies. this year my cookie supply isn't very good.

but i'm not having a Christmas party. i'm sad. i didn't have time to plan one. but at least then i don't need as many cookies.

i should look in the freezer. i think i have 4 containers of cookies (some are small). to jog my memory of what i actually made. i think no-bakes, chocolate chip, and outmeal raison. then i have a small container of peanut butter balls/buckeyes that i never took out of the freezer when i had the wedding. i know i should make peanut butter cookies but i don't have the hershey kisses here so maybe i'll do regular ones or just forget about them this year.

finally

we finally went grocery shopping. we spent 120. i dont think we bought much meal food though. we also spent over 100 today at sam's club.

i'm tired. my head hurts. my throat hurts. i only sneeze sometimes. i'm going to sleep. i slept 12 hours last night.

talking on the phone consumes too much of my time.

to do list for today

how many of these things will i get done?
1. laundry. 1 load is in the wash. i'll have at least 3 loads to do it all. the 1 hamper weighed 32 lbs
2. clean up
3. set up to take the Christmas picture then take it (have to move some ornaments to the other garland since that is the one we're taking the pictures by.)
4. make cookies
5. go grocery shopping
6. go to target
7. make more Christmas cards
8. write out Christmas cards
9 address envelopes (last year i used store bought Christmas cards and I think it took a good 4 hours. I've already spent 4 hours making cards and i have 10 made. i sent 39 cards last year and this year i have more than I want to send. maybe i'll find my store bought cards and use those but i have no idea where they are)
10.carry all my stamping stuff upstairs and put it back on the shelves.


already went to the gym

we went to grove city today. it was exhausting. it was really busy. it took way too long to get around to all the stores.

it's too cold in here.

i have a headache and i keep getting foot cramps. i'm supposed to be drinking lots of fluids. i drank 8 oz total today.

i donated blood today.

i'm skipping the gym today.

i am so tired. i think i'm going to attempt to go to sleep now. i've been so tired all week.

some friends came over tonight ot make cards. it was fun times.

now i've been to the gym 5 days in a row.

so i wanted to be mean in an e-mail but sound like i'm not being mean and pb said most people just do that and it's not a big accomplishment. i think i failed though.

i went ot the gym 3 days in a row.

may i'll look good for Christmas instead of looking gutty like I did at Thanksgiving. I have no self control with frozen no-bake cookies.

here it is

the skirt that I wore tonight:

it took a lot of figuring for what shirt to wear. i wanted to wear a button down shirt but if it was untucked then it covered the waist band and if it was tucked in then my waist was entire too high (even though that's where my waist is. i'm too short waisted for it to look good)

my clothes and the party

we had our work christmas party. we got free beer. but no other booze. we do an elephant gift exchange .i ended up with a clock. i brought my tic tac toe drinking game. people liked that. it kept getting stolen. i knew it would go over well with the drunkards. i didn't' expect people to actually get drunk. then we ended up with 2 more gifts because one guy didn't want 13 bobble heads. and craig was nice and gave us the electric screwdriver that he got. and pb also ended up with 3 boxes of chocolate. the chocolates were our gift from sue this year.

i wanted to wear something i can't or don't wear to work and it was buisness casual attire. i wore a short skirt. i'll post a pic later. well i sure looked pretty in my nice outfit. but a short-ish skirt and drunkards don't go well together. i got embarrassed. one guy at the group christmas party kept making remarks about my skirt and how i should be vana white (when we were doing the gift exchange) and even commented on it again later. i can't even believe the drunkards. girls complimented me on my nice outfit. i actually only wore a skirt because haley said she was and i couldnt be outdone by her because jason has pics of her up at work and people think she is all hot. well i won. she did not look good.

weekly update since i'm a posting slacker

Tuesday I went to Joe Mama's in Oakland to meet my mentee from CMU.
Wednesday I went to dinner for gram's birthday. it took an hour to get to mckeesport because of a stupid car accident. then we went to my aunt's and had cake. my aunt told my uncle to buy a red cake. she meant red devil's food. he got yellow cake with red icing. it was a funny looking cake. then i headed home so stacey could come over to stamp. she was supposed to come at 6:30. but i had to change because of the impromptu birthday dinner.
Thursday we went to Johnny Carino's and went to Target after. We bought some Christmas decorations and I got a nice new coat.
Today I napped on the office floor while Dave was reading his e-mails before we would watch TV. then we watched TV and ate, and i've watched more TV. then we went to the deauville park gym. and i've been watching taped TV through my computer ever since.

how about that steeler game? i saw maybe 5 min of it. 1 min here. it was boring. turned it off. then watched 45 min of a show and then turned on the game. boring again. then another show. then show is over and i watch teh rest of the game.

how about that game causing me to miss dancing with the stars.

wedding pictures

i did some fancy photo editing to 14 pictures in 3 hours. and all of the editing wasn't fancy. some of it was only changing color to black and white. i still didn't figure out how to do what i wanted to do. i did some weird things that i don't think will turn out right when printed. we will see. this is a step in the right direction to making a wedding album.

i get up from the chair after eating a snack
pb: goosey your pants are unbuttoned
me: well i had to so i could eat more.

i hate when there are too many choices. it just makes it too hard to decide.

we at a big meal at 1 but my big meal isn't as big as everyone elses. so i ate again at 5. then i took a 2 hour nap.

mike gained 7.5 lbs from lunch, timmy gained 5.5. and dave y gained 3. i didn't do a premeal weight at home so i couldn't tell for sure what the meal weight gain was.

i just sent my dad an e-mail asking him if he'd make me a shelf like this for Christmas. i said i'd help. he has a saw. that's really all i need him for. but it'd be nice if he bought the wood too. note the comment that her husband made it for her. i told dave this and he said he can't make things like that. it involes stainine or painting and that's too much for him...he could do it.

my weight graph is updated and i'm in the process of updating my calendar site. i'm almost done with july. i'm a little behind.

tonight i ate the last 8 nobake cookies out of the upstairs freezer.

these no-bake cookies are going to make me so fat. i just keep eating them out of the freezer. i hope i don't have to make another batch before Christmas because I ate them all.

this morning

this morning i decided to clean. i got the bathroom upstairs cleaned and both sinks. th en i went downstairs and did a little to cleaning the living room dining room. i didn't vacuum yet. then i decided to make no-bake cookies for Christmas since i ate all the tones already for Christmas that i had made a few weeks ago. i kept making them too big today. i'm so mad. they are too big they don't look nice. then i thought i could make peanut butter fudge. but the marshmallow cream was a partial container so i couldn. then i thought i'd make lunch and while deciding what to make i realized i had gotten out all the ingredients for oatmeal raisin cookies. it took me until I was getting out the mixer to realize. so then i made a double recipe of that. i'm starving now and a little lightheaded. time to go make some angel hair. then i might clean up or i'll make a mess while scrapbooking.

i watched a lot of TV today.

my foot hurts so bad. my shoe wasn't nice to it today. mind you i've worn these shoes many times before. but then during the long walk to the car i really died. i think it took us 15 min to talk to the car because i had to walk so slow. it would have been a 10 min walk normally. the upper lot at work was totally full so we had to park in the back parking lot.

dinner

so around dinner time i asked pb if he would cook dinner for me since i cooked breakfast for him (note last post)

he said he could type and order pizza via the computer for dinner if i wanted


he did more than that. he actually called on the real phone to order pizza from a new place. then he was giving our phone number. it took him 4 tries. i had no idea how or why he was messing up so much

breakfast

i made pancakes, bacon, eggs, and toast for breakfast today. dave didn't have any eggs. breakfast was at 2pm.

bacon and eggs on toast is wonderful

i slept more than 12 hours friday night and last night i slept over 10.

i went to sleep at 8:30 pm last night.

so most girls ask the guy if this or that makes them look fat. well dave just volunteers this information. then today he said "i know why it makes you look fat, because you are fat.

wow am i tired

i'm so tired but really i have a lot of stuff i want to get done to better prepare.

Introduce a girl to engineering day and a stampin up workshop.

i stayed up way too late.

pb wanted chocolate chip cookies so i made some. last tray is still in the oven.

i don't like making cookies. but i love making them. but i don't like that they don't get eaten. i don't really eat any. pb eats like 3 and if i don't give the rest away right away they go to waste. well this time i'm freezing a container full for christmas so then i don't have to make chocolate chip cookies if i don't want.

today i recognized my dad from the front windows of a store. his coat gave him away. they were in some furniture place at the mall. i was coming out of the mall after exchanging a stupid necklace and on my way to johnny carino's. then they joined us for dinner.

pants

they are hemmed. halfway through hemming them, i decided to look up on the internet how to do it. i did it all wrong. there are like 8 billion steps. i did 2. one i should have probably done was try on the pants and eye up how short they should be. oh well. i dont think i did the stiches right either. i also did not remove the old hem or trim the fabric.

i'm finally hemming my pants. i'm hemming them 2 3/4" ...do you believe that. well the inseam was 38.5 inches. i guess still is. i did iron up where i want the hem though. i dont knwo how to hem. i never did it before. i hope it goes well.

i thought i got home late on monday when i didn't get home until 9:30. but i went grocery shopping then. today i got home at 9.