i wanted to work from home tonight.
i did but not as much as i wanted to.
now i feel like i didn't get enough done.

yay for shopping

yesterday i bought 3 things. 3 different sizes
2 skirts and a dress
same store

i'm goign to a bridal shower tomorrow
tonight i bought a dress for the wedding and other weddings
i also bought 2 skirts
wednesday i bought 2 skirts
last week i bought 4 pairs of shoes

today i realized my purple shirt (fairly light) would match khaki because i tried on a khaki skirt.

i still have to find a site that will give me different kinds of sentiments to write on the inside of cards that i make.

i didn't get to exercise today besides 9 min on the exercise bike
and it was a hard 9 min. face turned red.

mad

i'm mad that my black skirt doesn't fit anymore.

i'm getting too fat.

i updated March (well most of it, there are a few on my mac)

tired

i'm tired
i just finished doing my work for work

today i went into work early. i worked hard then left for PT then came back and ate half my lunch because i didn't have time for the rest
then i worked again
then i left to go to dinner in shadyside for a carnegie mellon mentor dinner since i'm a mentor
then i went to littles and bought shoes
then i got lost (a lot of times)
then i came home and ate dinner (again...ooops)
then i worked.... now it's bedtime
ugh

i have to be at work by 7am. i like to sleep for 8 hours. this is going to suck.

so eating 2 dinners won't be good for my weight graphs. but then on top of that i ate a TON of chips with dip after the 2nd one.

the dinner in shadyside was at a tai restaurant. it was scary. i didn't know what to order. i got a noodle thing with chicken and broccoli. well it sounds better than it was.

yea

i just did 5 min on the exercise bike pain free.
went 2.07 km. i'll see if tomorrow i go further. i didn't want to overdo it.
i just got the OK today to use a bike or an elliptical. then the next step is walking on a treadmill he said. but not to try that yet.

within an inch of my incision i'm still bruised.

i thought i had a bruise on the back of my leg. then it was just a bump. then i checked and my other leg had one too. then i said "maybe it's a muscle" and dave laughed.

mikey said i'm nuts on facebook by talking about my weight graph. now i feel i need to update it better.
i also need to update my calendar site better.

we just raked the yard and got rid of the snow mold and there was a ton of it. i'm so sore. dave spent longer doing it. i was at home depot when he started.

my muscles are sore.

i updated this today.
also added this

Where the line is at 0 in the midde is not accurate, it just means that numbers are missing.

Timmy is winning.

i was so tired today when i got home from work that i could barely make it through dinner before needing to lie down on the couch.
oh and i was so hungry that i needed a snack before i decided what to eat for dinner.

exercise

i exercised for about 2 hours tonight
90% of the time was my legs.
i found a picture from january 2007 and my legs are noticably different. i need to go take a picture in those shorts and then do an official compare.

today i weighed what i wore the day of my knee surgery. so that means i lost the 5 lbs I gained since the surgery. i gained .8 the day or 2 before the surgery so we'll see if that comes off too.
tonight i was lying on the floor putting the one ankle weight on and pb told me "you look so fat".

so since i religiously do my knee exercises, i have no time for anything else. my to do list is about a mile long now.

PT Update

I'm good at PT. i even discontinued exercises because i can't get any better.
it made me feel good. i also got some exercises made harder which was good.

pb asked who turned on the outside shower. i said " you mean the rain" funny guy

update

This week was so exhausting. I had a Stampin' Up party on Wednesday and then on Thursday I went to my aunts because my other aunt was visiting. Tuesday I had to prepare for the entire stampin' up party because I did not do it earlier. Wednesday and Thursday nights after I got home I had to work for about 2 hours each night. Monday night I was so exhausted that I didn't work from home at night because I went to sleep at 9pm. The first week back was tough. Then in addition to that I was around people who were sick. I better not get sick.

Wednesday night I was around 2 different girls whose husbands were sick from work that day. so they probably had all the germs. then Thursday at work I was with 2 people who just returned from work and another person who was just getting sick (from the other people's cold) and then that guy was out sick on Friday. and on Thursday night my aunt was sick and the baby was sick. Friday I woke up with a killer sore throat. I'm hoping that was nothing.

hmmm

i'm in my room minding my own business. i send something to print to my printer in my room but this causes dave's computer to shut down. or at least i sent 2 things to print tonight and his computer shut down twice as soon as I send it to print

my dad went to the ER last night. my mom tried to call me to tell me and i even read the number on the caller id and wondered why she was calling and went back to sleep. ugh

also last night we drove home from my parents house at about midnight because dave played poker with my dad. there were a ton of deer on the road at that hour. then this guy ran pb off the road on 30. luckily there was an extra almost merging lane at that point and it just ended but a huge shoulder. but if we were 10 feet up further it would have been a huge curb. and then started yelling through the window at pb. then he caught up to us on the turnpike and tailgated so pb slowed down so he would pass. but then we caught up to him so pb pulled over so we wouldn't have to deal with him.
then the turnpike was closed. they didn't tell us that earlier. they just said to expect delays. so we had to take 910 home because we missed the turnpike closing by about 15 min.

colors

I noticed that I say like "pink" and "blue" and then Melanie says "saphire" and other blues that I can't remember. And for shades of pink she had different words too. One was coral. It's not even that pink but that's what i would call it. or orange. so many colors. Who knew. or green she would say "lime" or man i can't remember.

shopping

i went to the mall today with Melanie. We went to 4 stores. I bought 12 shirts, 1 necklaces, and 2 scarves. I almost spent 200 bucks counting the smoothie I had. Excitement.

note i made this friends only so my mom doesn't get on to the fact that I went to the mall before I went back to work (even though it's a weekend and i'm going to work on Monday.)

i should probably go to sleep

i took an hour nap
then i tried to go right to sleep.
it didn't work. i finally got out of bed after an hour.
now i've been at my computer for well over an hour and i'm not tired at all.

diet update

Timmy lost 2.2 lbs in 2 days. i gained .2 lbs. I don't know Alia's numbers. She's about as serious as I am about this. She might be more serious and I'm going to be mad when I come in 3rd.

Here's how good I am at dieting - I eat Wendy's and Girl Scout cookies.


It also hurts to eat because I think I burnt the roof of my mouth about a week ago. I really dont know what I did to it but it hurts like it was burnt or something.

diet

i went on a diet with timmy and alia. so far I gained .6 lbs.

pictures

pictures of me since surgery
feb 13 (unlisted album so you need this link)
me since surgery

i just came into my craft room for the first time in weeks. pb vacuumed it when he vacuumed other stuff up here. how nice. and i didn't even know because i didn't even come in here.

i just took a 2 hour nap

after 1 hour is when PT called me back. I scheduled my appointment (for friday at 2:00) and then i went back to sleep. i only wanted to sleep an hour so dave told me to stay awake. i said "just a couple minutes" and finally he gave in. Then at 4 he tried to wake me up, telling me in was 4. i didn't believe him. i thought i didn't even fall back to sleep. he proved it on 3 clocks so i believed him, but still watned to sleep.

update on me

I went to PT. I was told how great I'm doing. how I'm so good i should be able to drive and pretty much go back to work. told that i'm walking really well.

then i see dr fowler. he removes my stitches and the wound splits open and bleeds
now i have butterflies (or well steri strip or something) and i have a lot to change it and i have to go back next week now. and i have to "really baby it" now and if there is any drainage i have to immediately call dr rogale or wissick (sp) and be seen immediately since fowler is out.

i got benzoin little tubes too because the butterfly won't stick to my skin enough itself. he gave me the tweezers and scissors he used to take out the stitches. said i could use them to help me with the steri-strip.

I go back to work Monday. he gave me the option to go back monday or go back Tuesday after my next appointment.
i got a note to park close at work but i don't know if it's good enough and i mentioned it to the nurse person. she gave me her direct line and said to call her and she would fax whatever they need.
he said i'm allowed to continue PT but i think i need to skip the 1 exercise because it would stretch my skin too much.

I'm limping like crazy now.
Also, no shoveling for a few weeks but he said the snow will melt anyway.

he said i can vacuum bit that it would take a lot longer than normal to vacuum.

earlier today i was limping alot after walking a decent amount. but after icing and my exercises I walked without a limp. I wonder if the next time I get up if i'll limp or not.

pictures

check out early 2005 on my calendar site.

my computer is so slow.

i wonder if i have pictures on my other computer.

i know i have recent pictures, i'll get to cropping those later I think.

I also added Feb 1, 2006 that I found randomly.

Notice how skinny I was back then. (2 days in March, I look incredibly skinny)

I'm cropping pictures of me from before May 2005 to put on my calendar site.

Granted the past 4 months aren't even updated, but I have fun looking back at pictures so the next 2 days I think i'm going to crop up a storm.

gram went to the ER today. She went straight from the ER to the OR. they had to remove a few inches of her intestine. the surgery was for a hernia i think. she'll be in the hospital 4-5 days.

I had my 2nd PT appointment today. Before that I visited Gram.

After PT, I went to red robin with my parents and dave.

i think it'll be weeks before I can drive.

i woke up today with a big pimple in the middle of my left cheek

i can walk .... sort of

i had PT today.
Don said that I was very good for a first appointment. it must be that i practiced yesterday.

also i learned that the fact that i can't tighten some of my muscles is normal and i just have to retrain them. that is super good news to me anyway since i was stressing.

i should have slept on the couch
worst nights sleep ever
pb kicked my knee or something in the night. hurt so bad that i flung up and pushed him . couldn't sleep since. so much pain.

dave got home and i said "i didn't get dressed today, because yesterday you said i couldn't wear what I wore yesterday, so i just wore my pjs all day" he didn't appreciate it.

i'm still using crutches.
this sucks.
i shouldn't be
but i can't support my weight yet. even with baby steps

last night i was going to sleep upstairs. i wasn't ready to go to sleep when dave was so i decided not to sleep upstairs since it would be a hastle to try to get up there myself later after dave was asleep.
so i decided to sleep on the couch again. well i ended up staying up 7 hours later than it was that dave went upstairs. oops.

i took a bath today. we have a nice big tub. it's the first time i've used it. then afterwards I said i looked healthy. i almost looked too good for how i feel.

i accidnetally stayed up until 4am
then i woke up around 9.
but then i went back to sleep until 11

now i son't know if i should eat donuts for lunch or if i eat lunch food.


this what not to wear is funny. this lady is wearing a shirt that she snagged from her dad in the 70s. so it's even older than that. she's 33.

i think i'm staying up too late.

my knee hurts a lot more today.

i keep thinking i should make an LJ icon of my knee, since i make so many posts about it.

i'm always getting sauce splatters on my shirt. i hope they don't stain

stupid stupid stupid

i have to start PT this week. i can't drive yet though. makes it hard. i also can't go to the same place or there is no way i get a ride there. pb works Wed and Thurs. if he leaves at 3:30 he might be able to get home in time to get me to some place. i still have to find such a place and make appointments.

pb

pb said he's hanging out with me.

it's more like he's hanging out with his iphone playing music and singing along while sitting a few feet away from me. now that i called him out on it, he looks at me now and then and sings in my direction

now i have on 2 blue socks. pb helped me put it on



pb tells me this is a twitter post. but i dont have twitter so it's an LJ post for me.


now i'm adding more so it's not so much like a twitter post. my nerves or muscles or something in my leg/knee seem to be jumping all around. i wonder what it is.

i took off my ace bandages adn then the guaze stuff and then i cleaned the incisions with peroxide and put bandaids on it. so much pain. also i was about to eat before i did it but then dave came down so i skipped eating. i only made it halfway through lunch because i was too lightheaded. when i was putting my pants back on i blacked out. good thing i had dave holding me up so i could dress myself. i took pictures. if dave brings me down my card reader later, i will upload them.

my knee is swollen.



also i asked dave if he misses me at night in bed since i've been sleeping on the couch. he said no and that he replaced me with a pillow. then later i brought it up and he said he thinks he likes the pillow better.

scared

also in case anyone was wondering, before my surgery i was so scared and shaking like crazy. it was over before I knew it. at least i didn't really get scared until they started wheeling me to the OR. So it was proably only 10 minutes maxed of being super scared.

it would be so much easier to change my socks if i could reach my feet without bending my legs. i could never reach the ground when you had to stand there and reach down.

so i only changed 1 sock today. now i have on a blue sock and then a white sock from yesterday.

i'm going out of my mind with boredom.

it's boring to recuperate.

the hospital just called to make sure everything is going alright.

why is it that when i wear flats i wear a 34" inseam but then when I buy 36" inseam the pants are too long for 2 inch heels or even 3 inch heels. i need to wear 4 inch heels.

i knocked over my crutches while sleeping. they are behidn the couch. i've been waiting or pb to wake up for 2 hours so he can come down and get them for me.

so i had lose pieces of cartilage and they took those out.
dave asked if i would be able to run again. dr seemed to think so.but that i wouldnt want to (or maybe he said shouldn't) run on hills. that's all we got around here.

i'm home
i'm not dead :) i'm hungry

i feel too wired to sleep

clothes

here's what i wore yesterday

and monday

http://picasaweb.google.com/colleen.michelle.mccloskey/Clothes#

i can't upload to the server that i use because the hard drive is full so you have to click on my picasa and the white is yesterday and the pink shirt is monday.

today i decided to look pretty
so i didn't wear my knee brace. i also wore heels.

i'm regretting that so bad right now. ice didn't even numb it.

a coworker casually commented to me that while i'm out for surgery i'll be fine and relaxing and work at least 8 hours a day anyway. yeah right. i tried to tell him how i've been told by 2 separate people who had kene surgery that you are miserable and have to elevate weird so you don't even use a laptop for the first few days. he didn't believe me.

update

i'm so tired. i didn't get to what i wanted to get to. i have to be at work around 7:30 tomorrow. i normally wake up at that time.

i'm mailing a birthday card . i still have to make 1 and then make a sympathy card. i'm also mailing 2 medical bills.
too bad i only have 1 stamp.

i'm thirsty but i would have to get up to get a drink. *yawns* I worked too long today.

i got a loaner computer at work. guess what... it didn't work. while the IT guy was there setting it up, my laptop got a blue screen of death. then he ended up saying the loaner kept crashing so he had to go up and get me a new loaner. my group tells me all the time that i need to stay away from their computers.

also my throat still kills me. i wanted to ask my admin if she got sick with sore throat first. she was sick thursday and friday but still at work and i was mad that she'd make me sick. well i didn't get to ask her today because she was out sick.

weddings

I have at least 4 weddings to go to in the next year. I better start saving my money now.

i think i'm too old for ultra low rise pants. my butt doesn't fit in them anymore. i guess i need to buy new jeans then. the ones i'm wearing are 5 or 6 years old. summer 2004 i think but i could be mistaken.

i'm so stupid. i made cookies without wearing my knee brace

ice

i just spent a half hour using the ice pick and shoveling. the bottom of the driveway is almost totally ice free behind pb's car (except i didn't do the angled part at the end of the driveway since the pile of snow is over that. but behind my car is still 3 inches thick or more at the bottom of the driveway. i tried to get rid of layers. then i eyed up the sidwalk. the sidwalk on the side of the driveway with the mailbox is 5 inches thick of ice. i tried to pick at it and then shovel to at least get rid of some of the top layer so if it melts with the temperature it's easier. then the driveway isn't shoveled as wide as the pavement. i tried to shovel closer to the edges but it was too icey so it was super hard to stand. i salted. the driveway is out of the sun though. it was quite a workout. also i banged my jaw with the shovel handle when i was switching from shovel to ice pick. not sure how i did it, but it sure hurts. the sidewalk on the other side of the driveway is only 3 inches thick of ice. it had a layer of snow on top. i shoveled that off.

the road is a pond. there is so much ice around the drain that the water doesn't really get to the drain.

across the street the driveway and walk is bone dry except at the very end where i have trouble with. and that is wet on their end. this morning it ws inches thick of ice. the people in this house shovel. they are practially the only other house on this end of the street that shovels their driveway and walk

across the street to the left (where the people have a basement garage), they had trouble getting out today. their tires were spinning like crazy. there are pink balloons hanging from their mailbox. i don't know who lives there though. it's the house that has the stone around the front door.

so earlier today another house across the street had inches thick on their entire walk. their walk has steps and you can tell how much snow/ice is on it since they don't have shrubs. their walk is dry now. they get the sun. we don't get the sun.

this new printer is huge. it messes up the whole flow of the room.

it's so bright outside. i think i need sunglasses to sit at my computer because it's so bright out there.

nap

that "nap" i needed the other night ended up that i went to sleep and then slept the entire night.

2nd night in a row that i didn't get home until after 9 i'm so tired. i need a little nap before I get to doing work.

oh and i'm gaining weight.

today

today dave wanted to work from home
we spent forever shoveling because we weren't going to work from home because we had dentist appointments after work. also i slipped and the salt in the cup i was holding went into the air and rained down on me. my head is still itchy from it. my back is not itchy anymore. i've even already showered.

then on the way to work, some guy almost hit us while he switched lanes to not hit the guy who had spun around and was perpendicular on the road. this was about a quarter mile from the turnpike exit in monrovile. by the time our friends traveled, there was already a cop car and tow truck there and shortly after there was one of those signs signalling people to get into the fast lane.

then work kind of sucked.

then we didn't go to johnny carino's because of the weather.
i slipped but didn't fall walking from the car to the dentist.
the dentist was 30 min late in taking us back.

then on the way home i tried to go to pat catan's and they closed at 4 because of the weather.

rt 8 fast lane was bad. but ridge and glasgow were totally bad.
then we spent 45 min trying to shovel the ice, snow mix. it was awful. the snow miles that were on the side of the driveway were gone.... the snow was all over the driveway. it sucked.

i'm so tired.

(i'm so tired that this is a shortened version of what i originally wanted to say about today)

ugh

my knee hurts so bad.

oh and about the 4 lbs. yesterday when i put on my jeans i didn't think my butt fit in them anymore. maybe all 4 lbs is there. the jeans are still not tight enough in the thighs.

so in Atlanta all there was to eat was healthy stuff.
I get home and I gained 4 lbs.

home

i'm home. i got back from atlanta yesterday. I was there for 4 days for a conference. Most people there were old. About half the people i talked to (besides Westinghouse people) were retired but got bored so they went back to work.

snow

i just shoveled. my heart rate is high. my back, side ab, arms, and hands hurt. 5-7 inches of snow. but it sucks besides on the edges of the driveway it's so high that you have to lift so high to throw it over.

ugh
joann fabrics.
frames were supposed to be on sale
same with the stuff i bought
so i didn't take out a coupon
i get home... frame wasn't on sale. now i got cheated out of 11 bucks

it's so cold at work that i kind of start to get used to it so the at home i'm hot. i'm hot and pb is cold at home. when ddi you ever think you'd see the day?

i took down my Christmas Tree today.
my parents came over and my mom helped me take it down.

every time i look outside, there is more snow. now i don't look outside much but still. we shoveled after work today and it could use another shoveling.

i'm sick of snow. and shoveling.

i just uploaded 3 new albums to picasa give them a look see.

oh and i added 1 picture to my random folder.

3rd load of laundry is in the washing machine right now.

i have at least 20 articles of clothing that need to be ironed.
i have Christmas decorations and the tree to take down.

at least i'm kind of snowed in. we got about 7 or 8 inches here. my mom said she only got a half inch.

i paid the neighbor kids to shovel the driveway and walk. the mom came over to tell them they didn't do the sidewalks right. then she ended up helping them with the rest of the neighbors. i think the girl was in 5th grade (based on overhearing her talk to another neighbor) and then the boy was even younger. he used a little kiddie shovel.

life update - from a few days ago

this is the first time i've used my laptop in over a week. i've used dave's though. i also haven't used my mac in days.

I got my Victoria's Secret order in the mail today. It came early. 2 pairs of yoga pants, jeans, gray dress pants. button down white shirt, 2 sweaters, 2 long sleeve sh irts. i don't know what to wear to work tomorrow. the white button down shirt needs to be ironed. also some of my stuff from over a week ago (dec 26) needs to be ironed. maybe the wrinkles fell out of what i bought on the 26th.

i still have to go back to new york and company to get an ink tag removed from one of my shirts.

i have so many things to do this weekend. i probably won't do many though. I seem to enjoy being a lazy bum. I'm watching the season 2 finale of nip/tuck right now. i don't have any more to watch after this.

I also have so many things to do at work.

i'm in charge of something at work that is supposed to change our corrective action program. it will totally revamp it. it is across all of Westinghouse.

We got a new computer to replace Shady. So now I can get to updating my weight graph and checkbook again.

apparently i forgot to hit post on this post earlier. it's from Thursday night.

we got too much snow someone should shovel the driveway for me.

i just assemlbled 2 stamp sets and cleaned up my crafts a little. I still have a long way to go. I should finish dealing with my income and expenses for the year.

I have a lot more to do but I think I will just go watch TV.

I wonder if I should be productive today and go to New York and Company to get the ink tag removed from the shirt I bought last week and go to Bed Bath and Beyond to exchanged a Christmas gift.

it's an awful idea to go grocery shopping right after eating too much

18 episodes of the OC is more fun than cleaning.

one tree hill is better than The OC though.

i just watched 12 episodes of the OC. Oops.

i just said to dave "looking at this house, you'd be surprised we're having a party here tomorrow night."

it's so messy. i should probably clean instead of playing mario kart.

i have a nice to do list. it's the list of stuff that needs to be cleaned. i made it for the last party i had. i just changed the dates in the hater and uncrossed stuff out. i had to add stuff. but i did get to take stuff off of the list too. there are probably only about 50 things left on the list.

it sucks that i just had to use a stamp to mail a $1 medical bill.

BTW I hate medical bills. I get too many.

laundry

i've heard of losing a sock in the wash but never half a bra.
it tore or something in the front. i only have the left piece. i don't know how that happened. i wonder where the other half is.

update: i found the other half of the bra. it was stuck in the dryer.

2nd week in a row that we forgot to take out the trash.

today

i did some shopping today.
i spent my Christmas money... times 3. oops

i bought a white (or maybe it's off white) suit. i got some sweaters and long sleeve shirts.
then at target, we got some Christmas stuff on sale and I found arch supports there. Everywhere is always out. I bought 1... they only had 1. I also bought a jewelry box at Kohl's. I wanted a 30" chain but they were out.
target and kohl's were mad houses. i hated it.
anne taylor loft and new york and company weren't that bad. well new york and company was a little bad. they had stuff on manicans but i couldn't find the shirts anywhere. and i couldn't find workers to ask.

i fell asleep through 30 rock. so i tried to watch it again. and i fell asleep. i think i did a 3rd time but PB wouldn't let me. then i napped. and woke up 3 hours later.

i had some crazy dreams. one was that gram was living at her house on the main floor and someone else lived upstairs.

we were all baking cookies and weird desserts for my wedding. we were doing it at grams but for some reason we had to park way down the moutain. the mountain part of it i think is because of jason's house. not sure about the wedding part of it. i just know that the cookie part of it is because i need to make more cookies.

our neighbors have a Christmas party tonight. it starts in 3 hours.

today

I made so many cookies today.
ok i barely made any but i spent pretty much most of the day. I still have to cover the peanut butter balls. the sugar cookies sure are good.

post from 3 days ago

the following post is from 3 days ago. but my program on my mac kept having a server problem and wouldn't post.

i stayed up too late
the last 2 episodes were hard to stay awake through

i probably only have 10 more before i'm totally caught up with all 6 seasons

i bought a new watch today. a fairly cheap one.
but in the past month or so my one watch battery died and the band on that one was about to break. then i lost my dressy watch that became my everyday watch. so then i finally used my old watch that was so worn down. it was silver and gold. but some of the finish kind of wore off and turned red. well i left that watch at my parents.

i'm naked without a watch. and meetings at work are awful without a watch.

i just took a 2 and a half hour nap. i think i should go to sleep for th enight or something.

i'm so tired. i didn't get to sleep enough. My heart attack alarm died in the night. i shook it and it started ticking again but i don't think that is smart. i shouldn't trust it for another night unless i get new batteries in it.

Time to finish getting ready to head to my parents.

I really wish I would have had some cafeine yesterday. I might have some today. we'll see.