o i learned that tons of stuff could be done in photoshop. i want to learn how to do those things. i was watchin screen savers earlier. it was amazing. i want to practice or learn how or something.

and i'm in philly and i'm tired

so i worked today.
john swope told me a secret. he and barb love me so when i'm home on break anytime in the future to give them a call and they would love me back. i'm not supposed to tell anyone since it's against restaruant policy because of my lack of working new year's eve. he told me that they dont want to lose me and that definitely call. i said that i hope for an internship this summer and barb said that i could work there too. how nice of them ....hahahaha

o the pain. an hr and a half later i finsished my 4 small cookies

i took a long nap today. longer than i wanted. i had a bad dream too.

this is what happens when you can't swallow food because you feel like you're swallowing your tongue.

o i dotn konw if i said but friday morning i went in to set up the oak for sunday brunch. last night when barb told someone else to and there was only one small thing to do he was surprised. i guess when other people set it up they dont do a good job. the one small thing he had to do was get rid of this garbage bag of pine branches. i put it in the bag but people were all over the building so i couldn't take it anywhere.

grrrr

chesterfields sucks. i called at 9:05 and chris answered the phone. barb wasn't even in yet. i said i wouldn't call back and they had to call me. he didn't know if i would have to work or not. now i can't even fall back to sleep. i didnt think to ask chris if he got my note that i was there Friday night. grrrr

o yea since i wont be there new years eve i dont get to come back after the 1st and before i go back to school

ooo i forgot to post this:

it still hurts a lot to swallow. today i weighed 124.5 a new low for recent times. today seemed really long i think for the lack of food. i ate a stuffed cabbage today before work. i woke up super early and alloted an hr for me to eat it. i almost ran late and over my alloted time. the last hour or so of work i felt like was going to throw up. like i felt like i was gagging quite often. on teh way home it was bad. when i got home i had a piece of cheese cuz my mom had it out. acutally i think i ate two pieces of muenster. then i had 4 slices of bread with butter. that is all. it took me quite a long time to eat. the pain wasn't as bad as at work or this mornign i dont think. it could have been that i was super hungry. i drank skim milk too.

ahhhh

I started at 11 today. the day started off easy. nice easy party of 24 poeple. mrs divorchak's (sp) daughter had the bridal shower. then we had to set up for a 40 at 4:30. i had 2 tables the whole lunch. then aroudn 4:25, judy realized stuff needed done since the banquet servers weren' tthere yet and the party arrived at 4:30. i had to do that and i got new tables. then i had tables in 2 different rooms. dinner was very very hectic. then a table had to wait liek over an hr for their food and said they were so pissed off they couldn't even eat. which they didnt. their dinner and drinks were free. i think they should have tipped me. i was very busy today. i had late tables so others ended up helping with my side work. i feel bad about that. like really bad cuz i always get mad when i have to do stuff for other people. i still need to be tipped out for the party iw as working this afternoon. i worked almost 12 hours today. i made 101 in tips then i tipped out the bar 5 bucks even tho the two bartenders that got me most of my drinks walked out. also tonight a cook got fired because he was drunk and then got in a fist fight with one manager. he did get one punch in to the face of chris. john mcdonald has come to work drunk before but this time he came in sober and ended up drunk. that is quite frightening. after i punched out today i noticed that chris never punched me out yesterday. what a loser. he said he would. now i have to get that straightened out. that's 5.9 hours they need to add and fix.

as i was telling kevin and vinnie that tonight was my last night cuz they wont let me come back after new years eve, john swope (former manager that returned) asked if he could see me when i had a minute. i went over and he asked when i was leaving for Philadelphia and then when i said Tuesday mornign he asked if i could work tomorrow and monday if he needs me.

now tomorrow i have to call at 9am to see if lisa is better or if i have to work for her. which is totally crazy. they should call me. i dont wake up by 9. then on monday he wants me to come in and help decorate for new years eve. well since new years eve is wed i thought he woudl want me in the evening so i would get to sleep in but no he wants me in there at 9am. he wants me in my normal work attire too so that he could use me if he needs me. nobody is even in the place at 9am. i won't show up until at least 9:15 because i dont want to get there and not be able to punch in.

my feet hurt. i'm so tired. luckily i got 8 hours of sleep last night

ok so i didn't go downstiars to eat. i attempted to eat 4 skittles. i put themall in my mouth and about 12 minutes later i swallowed the last bit of them. boy am i hungyry and i'm gonna be tired tomorrow when i wake up so i won't want to eat.

i have this dilema here. should i try to eat or not? i'm so hungry but the pain is so much when i swallow.

i hate chesterfields

i work at 11 tomorrow for lisa

my grrrr at 10:38 pm last night was because Dave got duplicate presents that i got him and that I hadn't given to him yet. I still haven't given them to him yet.

Christmas pictures are loaded. I wish i had better ones when the family was here. i don't even think everyone is in the pictures.

dave is coming to visit jan 4-10 now

i'm tired. i want to go back to sleep. we started opening presents at 7am. i got a bunch of cool stuff. in the middle of opening, i started to feel sick to my stomach. i still feel that way. i had a glass of orange juice.

i work friday 9am setting up. i dont have to wear my white shirt and black tie.
then i work at 5 as a waitress.
then i work on saturday at 5 as a waitress.
that is all i am scheduled.

as of 2 today i was not scheduled at all.
we will see what happens.

averaged 12.52 an hour tonight. i guess that's the best i've had if they fix my other time sheets when i was making 7 an hour instead of the waitress wage.

i was the busiest i've been in awhile though.

everytime i average how much i make it's before taxes. so it is actually a bunch less.

grrr

reasons i can't say

i worked today. it was the worst day ever. there were no tables for our first 2 hours there. tables didn't tip good. tables complained because it took awhile for the food. i worked from 2-8:30

i made cookies and took pictures of them.

naps

2 hour naps are nice at the time but will ruin u for going to sleep. which then causes u to be messed up again the next day.

AP

visiting the high school was fun. mrs boyd's 7th pd class wouldn't talk. her 6th period class had about 10 kids missing. her 4th period class was small.
we went to kerber's for lunch. the french fries were good and hot. i didn't have ice cream.

so when i'm on overtime after wed they might realize how stupid they were and fix my whole timecard. i bet not though. but there is always the possiblity. then i will be back to not making much again. hehe

stupidity

chesterfields is so stupid. i was not on the schedule today so all the punching in and out was them. they punched me in when i was at home for 2.73 hours today. they also punhced me in as a banquet server tonight when i even specifically said it had to be server. i even got a second manager to fix it.

btw i am supposed to work tomorrow and i'm not and i still work wed of this week. and so far on my time sheet i'm at 39.95 hours.

i want a big long hug from dave and i can't have one.

i did no cookie bakin and i napped. mom says she is wakin me up at 9am to bake tomorrow.

hmmm

just got home from work. have to make cookies since i wasn't replaced as the cookie baker. and then go back to work at 5

totalled 10.5 hours today

then went to denny's for a 3 hour visit.

11-4 i worked brunch. now i'm home. i go back for 5 and work my full shift.

i worked brunch for michelle. she has to finish her christmas shopping. her kids r like 7 and 8 or something . young enough to need to be shopped for on time.

mike's bored and i work all the time. so it seems he is replacing me for cookie baking for christmas.

10.10 hours today woulda been 4 more if i woulda gone in early liek they wanted. grrr on them
i spent lotsa money on good shoes today. but still lotsa pain.

how accurate?

What Famous Leader Are You?

this was from the 27 question test

hmmm

What Famous Leader Are You?

with 9 question test.

What Famous Leader Are You?

with the 18 question test.

y did i leave my naproxen at school?

yup

i ate. i'm tired. i'm wakin up early tomorrow.

i worked the naretto buick christmas party today. i worked it last year. mr nareto remembered me. too bad i can'ta remember how to spell his name.

call at 11:30 from chesterfields
"are u comign in"
"i wasn't on the schedule"
"we thought u knew"

so at 12:20 i got there. and they sent me home around 1:45. grrr on them it was pointless. we were pretty busy but leaving after an hr isn't worth it in my book

i work at 6 tonight
3:30 tomorrow
5 on sunday
off monday
off tuesday
wed 2-8
thursday closed


lets c how closely they follow that schedule for me.

o the pain in my elbow. it hurt when i was turnin over and stuff.

my foot hurt bad when i was first walkin today

i already lost 2 lbs since i've been home.

there's nothin here that i want to eat.

i worked 11.43 hours today. that short cuz i took an hr break even tho they said 20 min.


there's a hole in the ice pack. my plantar fasciitis is back. my foot doesn't look pretty.
i was a server this evening. in a very small section. it was very very very busy and my last table waited over an hour and a half for their food. they gave me a good tip though. maybe it was those free desserts i hooked them up with.

i made 48 bucks in tips after tipping out bartenders and stuff. they kept making me stay later and i had to cash out twice.

kevin asked me out. after my answer then he asked if laurel would go back out with him. vinnie didn't tell me he loved me. laurel must have told him about promise ring cuz he asked about me bing engaged. some other servers had loud expressions after that. i just said it was a promise ring.

i burnt my finger today on a plate.

48 bucks in 7.6 hours would suck if i was making 2.83 an hour like i should have been. but instead i made my banquet server wage on top of that. so $9.14 an hr vs $13.32
but i was there all day so the average of today came out to be $9.20


the last table i had today that had to wait forever told me i should get a new job.

i'm tired. i work in 7.5 hours.

thanks to dave pictures

if rpi had the + - for grades i would go up .15 in average gpa. it is a lot different since it's out of 4.

i bought some more christmas presents today.

reading

last night i tried to go to sleep early after falling asleep on the couch. i gave that up after an hour. at 12:30 i began reading. around 5 i forced myself ot put down the book. i have less than 30 pages left. i want to finish. it became so good. i couldn't put it down. i almost read 200 pages last night. for me that is quite a lot. i had a few breaks during my reading time where i thought i woudl go to sleep and put it down. but that didn't last long.

we need more phones. we r lacking on our main floor. we had to throw two away. now we are down to 4.


also my mom said that from dec 26 on she's busy (this is because she is getting game cube)

i can't get photo galleries to work from home. so this will have to do. it's what was done to my room

argh grrr argh grrr

my mom ruined my room. i'm going to have to spend hours to get it looking how i want it again. pictures will be posted soon as to what she did to it.

hmmm

i wanted to make cookies tonight. we didn't have enough sugar for any recipe. i made a list of things i would need. tomorrow i think will be christmas shoppign and also christmas cookie supplies shopping. then bakign in the evening or the next day.

i dont kwno when to call chesterfields.

dave had a rough trip today. flights delayed and changed and loudness at the airport. 4pm flight didnt leaving until 6 and then 6:20 transfer flight still hasn't left yet.

pizza is so much better around here. troy pizza sucks.

daisy is so cute. she tried to give me kisses though. she is spoiled.

i'm home

62 degrees is too cold for a house to be kept. i put on my hat

still trying to come up with christmas gift ideas.

stuff

i just ate beeferoni at the dining room table with the light on. something that never happens here.

dave's so good. yesterday he loaded the dishwasher and turned it one. today he put everything away. such a good boy.

we're going somewhere soon. i dont know where except the bank.

i called home today when i woke up. we talked for awhile. daisy heard my voice and looked at the phone. i figured out what i might get mike for christmas.

i'm still waiting for grades to be posted.

i'm in philly now. i slept late. i came in last night but nobody set up wireless until really late.

i think i got an 89.5

7 hours until the test

tired

i'm tired of studying. my stomach hurts. i get easily distracted.

whoa i slept too late to be able to handle waking up for 8am final tomorrow. yes i just woke up.

much food to eat before break so that it doesn't go bad.

i'm angry at myself for not studying. i may think it's impossible for me to get my A. but the possibilities are a lot smaller now that i spent today not studying. 8am test is gonna suck. making this crib sheet is hard too. there are a lot of equations.

ok i lied i'm gettin up to do the dishes now. cuz i dont want to be held up in going back cuz they aren't washed.

OreoFuchi: if he's gonna eat, make him wash

that's right

pb's doing the dishes for the yellow cake with chocolate icing that was slaved over earlier.

lots of laughs

dad always keeps me laughing

Big JCJC (2:22:44 PM): time to feed the dog named Daisy see ya later bye

wednesday

I finished my strengths final after two hours. if i would have stayed longer i wouldn't have been able to figure out what i was iffy on anyway.

last night i could not fall asleep. i felt like i was spinning when i was laying in bed. my held was going forward in the counterclockwise direction. it lasted well over 20 minutes. i'm gettin a cold and it sucks. i'm nto sneezing all that much yet.

i was tired before. nto so tired now. i get to make a list of what i need to study for physics then hop to it. o i dont want to take it but o i do. i dont know. i know i won't get an A. i dont know why i try. it's just wasting two of my days.

my dad always asks a million questions. the other day i got him and asked him a million questions so he didn't get all his questions in. my posting keeps getting interrupted becuase he keeps talking to me.

i added a new picture and had to delete an old one...so now a new default picture for my gallery

i can't fix everything even if i want to. i try. i don't succeed. it isn't fun.


absense makes the heart grow fonder?


sometimes realizing something is quite rewarding. then thinking about it it loses it's appreication when i realize i should have known it the whole time.


strengths final tomorrow. i'm worried. yet i'm not worried. it's luck i think on how partial credit will be awarded. i believe i know the stuff. i am going to look over chapter 10 next since that is the only chapter we haven't been tested on so far. I gotta brush up on Mohr Circle garbage too. I thought i knew that stuff but i'm not sure if i do anymore. too bad i'm not skilled enough to pick up on the hints as to what will be on the final.

and now i feel like i'm spinning it's fun except my jaw hurts too.

some train tickets purchased. leaving here on the 12th at 5:15 pm. staying in philly until the 15th then coming back to philly on the 30th. nothing else pruchased yet.

i dont feel right. my jaw hurts. i've been clenching my teeth. i must not be happy

little things mean a lot whether good or bad

ok i talked maggie into taking the physics final. i'm starting to talk myself out of it. argh

commons might be a possibility today
we'll see

the classic had a little bit of trouble toinght. all because another car took his earlier spot

the day of rest

yesterday was the day for playing but i did not do that. i rested yesterday. but also today i rested. i half listened to grivas. so studying will have to be tomorrow. i took a nap today after waking up at 1pm. i took lots of pictures of snow. i watched finding nemo today.

lots of snow today = not worth walking to commons

we got a lot of snow. it'sstill snowing. i got halfway dressed and am lying in bed wondering what to do.

originally 2 finals on the 11th
both got changed

now one on 10th and one on 12th

dilemas

test 3 average 67%. none of the professors would have gotten a 100 on it. a few professors say they are changing their teaching styles now to adjust for the course coordinators alterations.

right now i have a B and i think I wont take the final to get an A. wait i might. it was said it will be more like a conventional final in the past. hmmm could i do it? i dont konw. is it worth the stress? i do not know. is it worth at 4 instead of a 3. it is to my mom. i dont knwo if i coudl do it. i need to study for strengths.,

i made a pretty graph of my money. it's actually not that pretty and a little depressing.

vnc won't work. :(

dilemas
and i think i choose to not take the physics final unless i like totally fail the physics test tomorrow. i dont know why i keep studying. i thinki quit retaining information about 5 minutes after i started studying. my mind keeps wandering and ied issues arrise and aim keeps me occupied.

ahhh not enough time alloted in the day to do ied AND study for physics.

strengths test = not good and also the TA can't add so i have to go get my extra point.

i burnt my thumb this morning on my curling iron.

i only need to study 66 different areas or things for the physics test.

class

what are the chances i could get a 100 on wednesday's physics test. if i get 100 on this test i have an A without the final. but i dont know anything at all on our preveiw test. studying i must. o if i get a 60 i still have a B.... so actually studying i don't really have to that much.

i have a lot of ied to do though. i should be a busy bee, but i'm lazy and like TV more.

haircuts

today i cut dave's hair and then he cut mine. pretty

2 nights ago we went to empire diner the second night in a row. we got another milkshake. the first night i didn't have my camera so we had to go back to try to recreate our first milkshake.

adventures

yesterday was a day of shopping and other surprises.

at outback dave gave me a promise ring. o it's so beautiful. i tried to buy a ring guard at target and kmart but they dont have them. i bought one a long time ago at walmart. i could order one on-line sometime. my knuckles need to not be bigger than the important part of my finger.

i expereienced 2 malls yesterday and multiple stores. we went to kohl's twice. 2 differnet kohl's so it was alright.

my purse broke at payless so i had to get a new one. the zipper came out. the rest of my mall trip had to be done with a broken purse.

at k-mart shenanigans took place.

we bought 2 dozen krispy kreme donuts after target last night. they were 10 bucks. at the train station one dozen was 6.20.

we did do a little christmas shopping. it more like gave me ideas and then i couldn't find the stuff i wanted. i did buy me stuff. i'm wearing some of it now. dave likes all my new stuff. he was an influence on buying it. i like to look pretty for him.

i still have a lot of homework to do and not much time left here at the not poly. i wonder how we are going to get all this stuff ack to the school. carrying it is the hard part.

o what a day

welcome to philly

my stomach hurts and i don't know chapter 8 at all and i have been a slacker at studying and i only studied some of chapter 7 so far and no i have to write my ied report for sunday night instead of later in the week

they shut of my ethernet port becuase of some network bridge my new desktop made.... the internet came back but as soon as we plugged in desktop it went away so dave called someone and talked for a bit.


now i really wish maggie's wireless would work for me.

ovens

stackwyck oven is so inconsistent. the cookies say to bake 10-12 min at 375. anticipating the horribleness i put it to 325. the cookies that burnt the most on top were in for 6 minutes. the cookies that burnt the most on teh bottom were the first batch at 8 minutes. i just had to keep a good eye on the other ones and they still didn't turn out right. not as creamy as normal. possibly the hotness of the oven that ruined them. it is quite sad. the recipe called for 60 and i got 54 out of the deal.

i have no clue how the last tray turned out because i was forced to finish with only the christmas tree lights. so i coudlnt' tell how dark or how light they are. most likely they are too light.

no bakes are a better bet up here

ahhh

its pretty blue when it's on. too bad it makes this beeping sound that drives me crazy. the sound has been narrowed down to the motherboard but it's also a voltage problem as to why it beeps. it's late now so more will be tried to be figured out tomorrow. o sooo much to do tomorrow.

work 1-6

40 minutes to install windows

pb likes cats

why do certain things bug me when they shouldn't at all?

this isn't any fun at all... i can't play with my new computer. i'm sort of regretting the lack of flat panel. Also they sent me a different mouse than was pictured. they did put the computer together for me when i just ordered parts.

there's a keyboard error or it's not found........ :( and i don't konw why

new computer set up time. i need a floppy drive

ied exhibition is done

i'm sooooooooo tired

aren't ied projects wonderful. i'm here at the dcc now working with a few others.

i so want to say what's on my mind but i dont want anyone to hate me. it's hard to hold back when he is/was so wrong.

PD1 was good today

in the wonderful world of computer lab monitoring i'm getting dripped on and i dont know how or why

also yesterday i forgot about work from 8-1 today in my plan of events

yuck

bj3l33t: also got good news and bad news for you
bj3l33t: the good news is the scr will work for us, the bad news is we dont needthe spark gap anymore, i feel awful cause you really did an awesome job im impressed and kinda sad i have to actually tell you we cant use it

how is that good news. like 10 hours of making my part and lots of planning down the drain

well maybe not ... dave says swersey will like it because it's a fully developed alternate method

"oh my god i'm dead" dave just said that and i agree

my computer monitor is now in Sharp instead of the Common's mail room. but the rest of my comptuer is not here. my credit card was charged on monday. i can't access the page where it lets me check my status tho. that scares me a little

i want my computer to come so i can not have it put together until IED is over.
My monitor is here... i havne't picked it up. but y waste space and pick it up now?

i'm excited about playing with it.

i burnt my left index finger today working on IED because I'm a silly goose

nice

my work is never done

so tomorrow my rough agenda:
wake up: 10:45
lunch :11:15
MDL: 11:50
PD1: 2
IED as group: 3:20
dinner: 6ish
IED and other hw

bed: 3AM

gotta love IED

somone else did one thing on my part and they messed up.

if i take the physics final i could get an A and to maintain a B i would only need a 62%.... but last year i only needed a 44 to maintian B so that meant an A was a lot closer and I didn't get that A. decisions will have to be made afther the thrid test i suppose.

dave is so funny. it helps relieve stress.

tonight was dinner with me dad. me pb kate and gravester ate with him. during dinner he kept getting up to look at the steeler game. i'm actually surprised he even agreed to go when steelers are on. at home he would never do anythign when the steelers were on.

update to october 25 entry: pb's wireless is no longer working :(

update to October 21 entry: i did get an A

i don't know why

i feel like i'm going to cry

i can't optain a network licence for solidworks so i can't use it to finish my assembly for ied

my whole ied group told me to use the stolen drill today. and about 2 hours later i bought one for 14 bucks

today

my impusle buy was actually a better deal than my previous thoughts of getting a new laptop next year (or senior year) so i'm just saving me money. go me

so i get to work on ied in a few minutes with teresa. fun fun fun. ied is a pain and i dont like how things keep changing.

i worked on strengths for 3 hours earlier and got 5/6 of the assignment done.

my dad's plane is gonna land in about 45 min. then i get to figure out how i was supposed to meet him and then we r going shopping. i hope he doesn't end up going to my dorm before i get there. since i have an ied meetin gat 6

i just applied for an internship at westinghouse. it's my first actual job i've applied for

spending

i spend too much money. i impulse bought a computer a few days ago. well it should be shipped out on monday to me. i still can't check my order status so i'm not sure what is up. i order the monitor from another company. that has been shipped out and expected delivery is on nov 17th. i'm excited about it all.

ied sucks and i can't take my group. things i've done can't be used.

i'm quite stressed. 24 helps me be not stressed. i love that show. i have 8 more hours to watch in the 2nd season then i can start this season. we will be caught up by thanksgiving.

duct tape is my new best friend.

i won't use stolen materials for ied

my computer sucks

i dropped social psych for next semester and signed up for writing to the world wide web

i attempted to change my desktop today but couldnt handle the change so i put my old one back that i've had since the day i got my computer

i figured it out
if i get a 100 on the next test and a 100 on the final i will have an 89.9 (if my hw average stays the same)

if i get an 80 on the next test and an 80 on the final i have a 79.9

looks to me like there is no real point in trying that hard. cuz i'm stuck at a B anyway. BUT there is always the hope of a curve...hmmm decisions decisions

i didn't fail my strengths test (the lowest grade was a 60)

never a whole

today my lunch seemed to end with .5 too
1.5 rice krispy treats and .5 bowl of cereal

it's friday and tonight is cooking spaghetti time

stuff

tomorrow i get my strengths test on that i know i did bad on. it's quite scary. they should have just given the tests back on tuesday so they wouldn't be prolonging the agony.

ied takes up so much time. i can't really do that much. i need to help out other people. there isn't much for me to include in my final chapter of our design report. that scares me a little. swersey isn't very good at getting grades and things back to us.
i used to think i would have more A's than B's. now i dont know. I might not even get a B in strengths and it's such a shame because i know that stuff. i think i'm like maggie was last year with iea. she knew the stuff and would just freeze on the tests. strengths is so much like iea. they should have a retake exam like iea did. it would make me a lot happier. at least i know i got an A in my one credit course. i just want a 3.5 is that too much to ask. i bet i'll get an A in psych and the law so that is good.
my physics test last week was bad. a lot worse than i expected. our professor told us after the fact that they made it harder because they felt kids were cheating this year. if i would have known in advance it was going to be harder, i would have studied more. other classes knew it was going to be harder so that isn't quite fair to us. my professor doesn't have a review session either.
I schedule for class in less than four days. i better hurry at deciding what i want to take.

today for lunch i had 1.5 cheese sticks, 1.5 glazed donuts, and half a carrot stick with ranch. go me

less than 2 chicken tenders = lunch today

dave doesn't like eggs, bananas, macaroni and cheese, or meunster cheese.

argh for everything school related

i'm going to dave's for all of thanksgiving break

hooray

pb got his wireless working. he's so cool. i love him!

sick!

i've been sick forever. I went to the doctor's again today. the doctor had to bring in another doctor for a second opinion. they can't really tell me what's wrong. they just said it's an acute sinus infection. they changed what antibiotics i'm on and told me to throw away the other ones i spent big bucks on

the spring 2004 sechule is up so it's classes pickign time. i have to wake up early next semester. it's gonna suck.

today

yup still sick
at work now. nobody is here that's actually in charge. so i believe it is naptime. too bad i'm not that tired. this is a perfect opportunity. i got lots of work to do but sort of not much to do at the same time.

today in psych i practiced my drawing skills. it was fun stuff. but then we had to watch a video and fill out a worksheet so my drawing was put to an end.

ied is a crazy class. i wish i had a better background of things.

programming is done. i wonder if i got that 90 on the final to get an A. even tho i had a 99 on the project and only needed 85 and also had over 100 on homework and inclass but only needed an 80.

i think iw ill start to get better since i made a doctor appointment

sigh

so much for today being the first day i haven't been dizzy since wednesday

zzzzzz

i am super tired. i keep falling asleep. well dozing off. but right now i'm at work at the 87 gym. i'll be here for another three houors.. as i just fell asleep typing that. my lips are dry. my hands are dry.

my pillow has returned.

me = sick
= horribleness

sharp gym

bicycle on exercise mode
endurance training
20 minutes
2.28 miles
78 calories
average speed = 6.6

today's the first day taht i just carried a camera on campus ever. and today there was a cute squirrel in range so i took many pictures. pretty ones

i did dave's laundry on my birthday for his anniversary present.

i got my strengths test back today..... silly mistakes = many points


but fun is in store for later

my poor daisy. not only does she have to have her eye taken out this week but she also has an underactive thyroid so she has to take 2 pills a day for the rest of her life

sat night

514 words so far on my psych essay... but too tired to finish tonight. i wanted to finish and get it out of the way. tomorrow is 6 month anniversary for me and dave. i wanted to have time to spend together. i already have an ied meeting tomorrow at three. the essay is about half done. i wanted to be done so it gets me mad. i am not good at essays. i should have probably taken a break and worked on something else before i got too tired.

i have strengths for tuesday, programming for monday, ied for all the time, and psych essay for tuesday. i already did my physics homework that is all i have completed. i did a lot of ied but that is never complete

i have two finals
posted times:
str - fri 12/12 8-11
phys 2 - fri 12/12 8-11

ied sucks
takes up too much time

must do work

i just wanna scream

i spend lots of time making a crib sheet then everyone wants a copy of it.

i should get a new computer next year!

while i'm on the topic of hate...

grivas didn't go over enough that covers our homework and i dont know how to do it. i worked and worked and couldn't figure it out.

ied

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. swersey tells lies. it seems like he has reason behind it. then he changes it or isn't ture to his word all around. he changes rules from the course guidelines. he makes us all confused. he changes stuff and acts like he doens't at all.

so much work for that class too. sooo much

yummm

i went to fresno's for dessert with kate and maggie tonight. they were all very good. our waitress seemed to not care about us at all.

gravester decided tonight was guys night out for them so it became fun time for us girls as well.

well we got locked out of the cage today and i had to wait for kevin to get back.

my parents visited this weekend. look for yourself

today

today wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i did my presentation in ied that i didnt' know we had to do. lots of people in my group researched the same as me. i didnt' get to sit anywhere near dave in class because we had to sit with our teams. physics wasn't so bad. i sat near tom today. when i got to physics i didn't like it because people were where i normally sit. threw me for a loop. i dont like when that happens. next time i have to be more than 5 minutes early to get my seat back. programming wasn't too bad. i would have figured it out myself. it's always just easier to ask dave. i got my one point for the inclass problem today. we have the next homeowrk assignment to do. only 4 more classes left and 2 more hw assignments plus a project. i dont think we really learn enough that we have to do in that class. the book seems pretty good though.

my family visited this past weekend. it was nice. i bought a lamp. timmy doesnt' think he would like it up here though. i got to spend time with just maggie and no dave at walmart. it was a lot different. we lost maggie at walmart and then when timmy was hunting for her we lost him too. he found her but we couldnt find them. we all found each other in the end and maggie got a big red rug.

i have to write my essay on philosophy of law for tomorrow. i dont think it is goign to be pretty. i hate essays!

as solidworks stops responding when i try to print.

ack

ied.... consumes your life

my parents and brother are here but i haven't seen them yet

we got our ied groups. it sucks. the teams are very lopsided with strengths and weaknesses. swersey said he goofed and he is redoing them. i'm not sure how well that will go though.

i'm gettin ahead of hte game. i'm running out of stuff to do except ied.

our bathroom smells funny...like mold or mildew or something yuck

argh

so much work. when u finish something there is always 2 more things that need to be done. and these new things take longer too. no more listening to people making me think that i don't have to do work when i think i do.

sharp

today there was a big leak into our dorm. somethign above our bathroom broke and it flooded in. kate called fixx. they said they were sending someone over, but nobody came here to clean anything up. they only cleaned upstairs i assume. there is still a huge puddle on the carpet. it's quite noticable to the eyes and to the feet (even with shoes on).

essays

i got a 3/4 on my first psych essay

Friday Night

tonight was a trip to macaroni grill and then to the movie which was the medalian. neither were that great. but i spent a lot of money! the movie was unliked byu all. ebefore we went half of us thought it would be bad we were right. we didnt' get to see a chick flick that would have been good.

Sleeping

2nd week of classes. 9 hours of sleep 3 different nights this week. 8 hours once. least amout of sleep so far was wed night with 6.5 hours

argh

IED = lots of work that i hate

wow...already

sooooo much work to do. so little time. strengths of materials is evil

well someone is sick and it seems to be me. i knew i wouldn't have my illness over and done with this weekend. it had to take a few days to set in after maggie gave it to me.
today we worked on ied for 6 hours! and we aren't done
it sucks let me tell u..... boring horrible. toss across

i got a new hardrive
i had to wait forever to get programs and stuff and i'm still trying to get all my files back. then i have to do lots of homework

i found the pool today

pb dropped my laptop

jcal just left. we did physics after we had dinner. and dinner was after ied lecture. ied was after a snack at sage. the snack was after pd1 for ied. that class started at 2. it was my first class. tonight pb is at gravester's attempting to fix their computer some way. gravester didn't know what was wrong w/ it so pb was needed.

maggie's grandma is in the hospital again. second time since maggie got to school on the 18th.

i wore gravester's favorite color today!

update: 22.7% of the way done w/ Sleepers

work!

work sucked last night. work being my work study job. i work in the cage at the 87 gym. we had to mop and stuff and it was all hot and the chairs were very uncomfortable. my butt had pain for a few hours after that. argh

waking up is hard work. it's like i need 9 hours of sleep. that'll change soon.

yup

after a causal conversation about static ip addresses my mom says:
Daizy Ch: you're sounding so polytechnic.

classes tomorrow. wohoo... already did about 4 hours of homework... argh

time to cut pb's hair

yup

first sunburn of the year: August 23

the commons opened today. it sucked

unpacking and organizing takes a long time

i'm 9% of the way through sleepers...... not reading at a good pace. at this rate i should finish by October 12

i'll be at school soon. quite exciting i tell u

work called and i am going in at 4 now instead of 5.
i'm picking my gram up at 1 to go out to lunch. i have to dry my hair and fix it between now and then

today

after shopping was on-line then out ot dinner then gram visited and then laura's
at laura's we watched two movies that i've already seen. and i don't see many movies either so i sorta wished we watched different ones. laura's dad makes vhs's of the dvd's they rent. i should learn how to do that.
we watched how to lose a guy in 10 days and then two weeks notice. that was the third time i saw two weeks notice. the first time was the not snow tubing day and the second time was when my mom rented it while dave was here. the first time i saw how to lose a guy in 10 days was on gravester's birthday when he let sarah pick.

dave when to sleep seconds after i got on the computer. i didnt' even get to converse at all with him becuase i was reading all of his ims. his away message is lying right now.

o the adventure

todya i went shopping and bought
sticky tack (6 packages)
a 2 year calendar
iron-on transfers

a shower caddy

a shirt

a 2 qt container w/ 3 cups
orajel
thermometer
toothbrush
bandaids
q-tips
2 2-year calendars
happy birthday banner
expanding wallet
peroxide
3-outlet adapter

i'm tired

i got to talk to maggie on the phone today. it was pretty cool. better than aim

check this out

i decided to start another book last night. sleepers....yup i read 13 pages already which is 3.5% of the way odne with the book. i have a ways to go.

yay

i finished the jungle a few moments ago. i put shorts in my nightstand for school. then i wrote in an actual journal for a little. i am not quite tired yet. i am not sure if i should start a new book sleepers or not. it had 370 pages. the jungle took me a month an da week and it had 346 pages. my room is so messy now. i'm glad that i only have one more day of work. i will call tomorrow to find out what time i work. if they schedule me friday, i am not going in. i will be at laura's house. the second time i saw most people this summer. i literally did nothing. working everysingle day of the week and put a damper on my life. i'm excited to go back to school. i want to see everyone and i want to excel in my classes so my mom will quit bothering me. but actually i think if i got a 4.0, she would still find some way to always bring up grades. earlier today i got a special message on the phone from dave. :)

o no

i didnt post at all yesterday.
what is becoming of me.

i packed a little but not much. mainly i was lazy. worked tried to call me in to serve last night. i said no. i have about 20 pages left in the jungle and at present time i am 94.7% done with the book

hate

my computer
hate hate hate


evil



reformatting

work

i made between 9 and 10 dollars tonight (well counting my 2.83. i avereged 7 an hour in tips. i always remember to tip dina, the bartender out or i would have had more money. i am the only one that tipped her out.

school in a week

my computer crashes many times a day.
it can't find the operating sytem. this is not good. not good at all.

i opened my computer this morning and it could not find the operating system!!! at least that's what it kept telling me and it couldn't find other stuff either. evilness

dave finished the jungle just to spite me

work

i'm sneaky but work deserves it. i was punched in as a banquet server all day today even tho i was supposedly a la cart from 5pm - 11:48. i only had 3 tables tonight. i was helping everyone else. it was eveil. luckily nobody changed how i was punched in. people were nice. i sold a bottle of wine tonight again. i really gotta learn how to uncork them. people asked me where to buy a car around here and stuff. i talked for a long time to my first two tables. fun stuff. at least they weren't rude.

i worked 11.8 hours today even tho i was scheduled for 9.

sarah might work for me on wednesday. i am excited. it's so hard to believe that school is so soon. i can't wait... well to go up there but not start classes

wow

my family is sooo crazy. they waited for me to get home from work to go out to eat. i got home after midnight. we just got back from dinner now

work

work sucks. i hate it. it's evil. people are cheap. tonight i ended up with 8.90 an hr but if i would have been tipped 15% i would have had at least 10.30 an hr

my foot hurts

i only had tables of two tonight. i was about ot get a table of 4 then bart stole it from me. what a meany. and i was done with my other stuff so i had nothign to do...

hmm

i think i have really come to the conclusion that i can't do any more scrapbooking before i leave for school. sadness. but at least i get to organize my STUFF.

less than two weeks!

free

daisy's vet bill was free. she was attacked by a swarm of bees today and we took her to the vets. she seems ok.

work

work sucks. they add me to the schedule then call me becuase i didn't show up. so i didn't bother to tell them that i was on overtime at the end there. only 15 mintues tho. quite disappointing. i should have gotten there at 5 like they said and then i would have had an hour of overtime.

they best be nice to me this week or *evil laugh*

ahhhh

i work too much. how will i ever get everything done?

work

Friday 5- (Hostess)
saturday 12-9(lies) (banquet server then server at 5)
Sunday 3-close (server)
Monday 5-close (server)
Wednesday 5- (Hostess)

so much for going easy on me so i can get ready to go to school

hmmm

i realized that i got over a pet peeve in the past year. a roommate can do that you to i guess. now wrapping a hair dryer cord around the dryer doesn't bug me.

i work at 4 tonight. ana has strep throut. it should have been 5 but then they asked if i could come early.

day 2 of not work

yet another day off. wonderfulness. except that i don't get many hours this way. o well. i want to start packing but there aren't any boxes handy.

giant eagle prints are thicker than walmart prints. but giant eagle prints are also more expensive.

i get a day off and i stay in bed

work

work was slow
i had 5 tables of two people. i made 25 bucks tho. i got my paycheck today also 371 bucks. biggest yet and i had serving hours on there. biggest because i worked the most hours.

two weeks until i'm at school

instead of cleaning my room

-WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR LJ USERNAME?
i always smiled so i made that my sn and then my LJ username

-NAME FIVE [5] OF YOUR FAVORITE PIG-OUT FOODS.
chips with dip, pepperoni rolls, nochos and cheese, pretzels, and

-HOW DO YOU DRESS/WHAT IS YOUR STYLE?
mostly dressier style but sometimes running shorts and a shirt

-WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE?
almost 2 days in niagra falls

-ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY.
still being alive

-MY FIRST HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN I WAS...
hmm... did i have a heardbreak

-DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD PREFERENCES? WHAT ARE THEY?
i can't think of any

-WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
their always wanting sex-ness

-IF YOU WERE FAMOUS, AND WERE TO BE A GUEST ON A TALK SHOW, WHOSE SHOW WOULD YOU CHOOSE? WHY?
who knows

-DO YOU HAVE A LOT OF MONEY SAVED?
not too much. i work a lot though

-DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD SLEEPING HABITS?
nope

-WHAT'S IN YOUR BAG?
stuff

-WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PAIR OF SHOES
i hate them all now that i can't wear my old favorites because of my foot

-NAME THREE [3] OF YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS.
the 3 little ducks on ducktales

-WHAT ARE THE MAGAZINES YOU READ ON A REGULAR BASIS?
i don't read any

-DO YOU TAKE ANY MEDICATIONS? WHICH ONES?
naprosyn - stupid foot i say

-WHAT IS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ?
i'm reading the jungle now and i finished the haunted bridge in early july

What QUIRK IS SOMEWHAT SHAMEFUL THAT MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU?
i don't know

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BODY:
1. What do you most like about your body?: legs?
2. And least?: my side profile (lack of chin and bump on nose)
3. How many fillings do you have?: they say i got two this summer
4. Do you think you're good looking?: sometimes i guess
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking? if you take out often then yes i guess
6. Do you look like any celebrities? i don't think so

FASHION
1. Do you wear a watch?: always
2. How many coats and jackets do you own?: counting hoodies, at least 9
3. Favorite pants color?: i like my dark grey ones. i used to like black until i wear it every single day at work
4. Most expensive item of clothing?: my running shoes or a coat maybe
5. What kind of shoes do you wear?: adidas for running or any kind for the rest

YOUR FRIENDS
1. Do your friends 'know' you?: a few i guess
2. What do they tend to be like?: care about things
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked?: probably not
4. How many people do you tell everything to?: One

MUSIC, TV, FILM & BOOKS:
1. Favorite group ever?: none
2. Most listened to singer: none
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking?: i don't know any
4. Can you play an instrument?: of course not
5. Type of music never listened to?: almost all

GENERAL QUESTIONS:
1. Who is the smartest woman alive at the moment?: i dunno
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day?: sunny if i'm not out in it getting all red faced
3. Do you consider yourself lucky?: yeah
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide?:i never thought about it
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: loved

MORE JUNK:
1. Name: Colleen
2. Do you like it?: yup
3. Nick-names: smilincolleen
4. Screen names: smilincolleen, ribsy2451 and other ones
5. Age:19
6. Birthday: sept 30
7. Sign: libra
8. Location: suburb of pittsburgh
9. Job: server, banquet server, hostess at chesterfields
10. Status: taken
11. Crush: no
13. Natural hair color: brown
14. Current hair color: same
15. Eye color: one has some brown in it and i don't know what to call the other
16. Height: 5'8
17. Weight: 123.5 (as of today)
18. Birthplace: pittsburgh
19. Shoe size: 10

FAMILY:
1. Parents: dad and mom
2. Siblings: mike and timmy
3. Live with: all sorta
4. Favorite relatives: the ones i don't see?

FAVORITES:
1. Number: 13
2. Color: pruple
3. Day: during the summer a day off and during school a saturday
4. Month: i don't have one
6. Movie: hmmmm used to be dirty dancing but not so sure
7. Food: for a salty food i'd say chips with dip but a real food it all depends. oooo i'm hungry now.... pepperoni rolls
8. Band: that's funny
9. Sport: i choose to hate them lately
10. Class: if i find an easy one then that is my favorite
11. Teacher: former teacher = mrs hunger
12. Drink: water with ice
13. Veggie: green peppers raw ooo or cucumbers or carrots
14. TV station: cbs since all i watch are my soap operas it seems
15. Radio station: radio ha
16. Store: i like tooo many
17. Expression: that's silly
18. Animal: daisy my doggy
19. Flower: i like daisies but they don't dry so i like roses

PICK ONE
1. Me or you: me
2. Coke or pepsi: i say water but i can't really tell difference between coke and pepsi
3. Day or night: Night
4. AOL or AIM: aim
5. CD or cassette? cd
6. DVD or VHS: dvd
7. Jeans or khakis: hmmm khakis r never long enough so i hate my khaki pants and i choose jeans but for shorts it's a toss up depends which shirt i'm wearing
8. Car or truck: car
9. Tall or short: tall
10. Lunch or dinner: dinner
11. N*sync or BSB?: neither
12. Gap or Old Navy: old navy has better sales more often and is bigger
13. Lipstick or lipgloss: lipstick seems to look nicer but lipgloss is shiner it depends
14. Silver or gold: gold but i always wear silver so i guess it's silver
15. Alcohol or weed: ha

LOVE & RELATIONSHIPS
1. Do you have a bf/gf?: yes
2. Do you have a crush?: no
3. How long have you liked him/her?: about a few weeks after he started to like me
4. Why do you like this person?: everything
5. If you're single, why are you single?:
6. How long was your longest relationship?: 1 year 2 weeks and don't ask
7. How long was your shortest relationship?: 4 months, 7 days, and counting (thanks dave for counting for me)
8. Who was your 1st love?: :) dave be the first true love....yuppers
9. What do you miss about them?:miss.... i'm not missing anyone

THE PAST:
1. What is the one thing you would change about your past?: stuff
2. What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?: same as question 1
3. Last thing you heard: sound of keys typing
5. Last thing you said: ummm out loud? i brought my hangers down
6. What is the last TV show you saw?: nip/tuck
7. What is the last song you heard?: like i remember

THE PRESENT:
1. What are you wearing?:red shorts with 32 on them and a grey fall crawl shirt and yes i know they don't match. this is just what i slept in
2. What are you doing?: filling this out, sending ims to dave
3. Who are you talking to?: an away message of dave's
4. What song are you listening to?: hahaha none
5. Where are you?: on my bed
6. Who are you with?: nobody
7. Are you online?: yes
8. How are you feeling?: ehh
9. Are you in a chatroom?: no

FUTURE:
1. What day is it tomorrow?: tuesday
2. What are you going to do after this?: eat and watch my soaps
3. Who are you going to talk to?: dave and i guess my family since they are always around
4. Where are you going to go?: to the kitchen even tho it is far
5. How old will you be when you graduate?: 22
6. What do you wanna be?: mechanical engineer
7. What is one of your dreams? happy
8. Where will you be in 25 years?: exactly? workin... or on break

OTHER:
1. Do you write in cursive or print?: depends on my mood or how much of a hurry i am or if' i'm bored writing messages on the message pad at work
2. Are you a lefty or a a righty?: right
3. What piercings do you have?: 1 in each ear
4. Do you drive?: yes
5. Do you have glasses or braces: nope but had braces in the past

vikki wanted me to work for her tonight and i wouldn't. my foot was killing me. it feel sort of ok now but i've barely walked since i came home.

my pants r big now.

when i got home from work my gram was here so i didn't come upstairs right away and then i missed talking to dave by like 5 min. i could have talked to him for like 15 min if i went upstiars right away.

not work

my new weight graph is awesome. this is what i do for fun. the WeightChartAugust2 one is the new one that is good. i am still workign on it though so a better one would be the more recent one.

school is soon!

foot = super super super bad

argh

work sucked. i made like no money. i had a troublesome table and they had a 150 check and left no tip at all... mean mean mean

i work 11 - 9 tomorrow.... yuck
jake has me blocked (well not on his buddy list) ...

hmmm

40.06 horus this week. i woulda just stayed, but i was so bored. i kept telling them i would be on overtime. they weren't paying attention. i coulda probably been there at least another half hour.

next week work schedule
friday 5-11or so as server
saturday 11-9 as banquet server (so i will be done aroudn 11 or later)
sunday 9:30-3 as hostess
monday 5-11 as server

and off tues - thurs....which is quite weird and really cuts my hours... we will c if they have me come in any of those days.

movie

and i watched drive me crazy today. it was a dvd i bought a week or so ago at walmart. i liked it. qutie the chick flick though. dave'll watch it anyway with me though

today

well i made it to the asmtha dr today. i did a little scrapbooking. i burnt a cd of pictures i want to make prints of. i went out to eat. i will be going to kohl's shortly. i will also be watching big brother tonight. i sort of enjoy days i have off.

spare time

more of my wonderfule past-time

next i think i will be using Pip's idea. i bet your suspense is building as to what that is.

stuff

SmilinColleen: stuff at work i forgot to say
SmilinColleen: i jotted it down on paper last night
SmilinColleen: hehe
SmilinColleen: john the cook was throwin up for a good while and told dishwasher to keep me out since i was goin in and out of kitchen cleanin up. he didnt' feel well all night and kept feelign sick. it was prolly11 when he was throwing up
SmilinColleen: ok 2 tables recognized me last night
Dave: why keep u out?
SmilinColleen: one table i had in the past they knew rpi
SmilinColleen: so i not c him throwin jup and not get sick by it
SmilinColleen: and another table said to me "i thought you were hostess" the guy talked to me at podium last week
Dave: ahh
Dave: u famous

i'm off tomorrow yay yay yay

today

Ahhh I do work tonight. and now i'm off thursday. vickie called off.

SmilinColleen: as a server
Dave: oooo
SmilinColleen: i have 30 hours so far
SmilinColleen: if i can get 6 tonight and 4 tomorrow i got ot
SmilinColleen: since i at 30.01
Dave: then they'll give u a day off!
SmilinColleen: vickie called off
SmilinColleen: and i can't work thurs cuz of OT
SmilinColleen: so how about i get OT w/ only 5 days
SmilinColleen: that's like wow
SmilinColleen: never before in life

weight!

this is what i've been doing in my spare time. it's fun. makes me happy. gives me something to do that makes me feel good. at least for now anyway

yup

pictures of flowers are here

wonderful day even with sad points

o what a wonderful day!
i got flowers at work from dave. everyone asked me all about them and who they were from. it was quite intriguing. i loved it all. it was awesome. they are all so pretty. then i made 54 bucks when i worked less than 6 hours. sort of made up for yesterday.

i worked 5.7 hours today as a server. i worked 5.9 yesterday as a server. today i made over twice as much. But yesterday royally sucked though. so far i worked 26.93 hours this week in 3 days. i was off on friday. so i work 3 hours tomorrow and about 8 the next two days after that. so i will work about 38 hours this week. no overtime for me. i will try to get it though. or as close to 40 as possible. yes i will. i'm greedy like that. i want to serve more. i liked it better that barb wasn't around bugging and screaming tonight. it makes the evening more peaceful,

dad got ok'd to go back to work tomorrow as long as he has a foot stool. He went to two doctors today and then to work to fill out forms about going back to work. He was out for four hours, which made his leg turn purple. which means it still isn't healed.

my foot can't handle a 6 hour day anymore. this is quite bad. i believe i will be sending an e-mail to the cross country coach and also the team to say that i can't run. it is sooooo sad. i want to run so bad and i can't.

today

work sucked. i was there over 2 hours before i had a single table. i only had 4 overall. blah

ahhh

today i worked.
5.55 hours then a break then 6.66 hours.
but i dont' work tomorrow at 9:30. they don't need me until 3.

my foot started to hurt bad today. i think i should just give up running. i need to find a different job in the future. i can't be on my feet all day. i'm sad about running........

friday

and dave has received his birthday present in the mail and i am off today and i have been scrapbooking most of the day

wow

40.11 hours this week. i warned chris i would be on overtime and he kept making me do stuff.

my schedules
friday - off
sat 11:30-
sun 9:30-3:00 hostess and 3:00-8:00 server
mon 11-2 hostess and 5-10 server
tues 11-2 hostess
wed 5- hostess
thrus 5- hostess

i got a day off

reprints

i picked up my reprints today for Kate and Maggie. 16 of them. $6.46. instore at giant eagle raised their prices for reprints since last time. reprints r more expensive that a full roll of film. art tells me some places let u get triples right off the bat. i think i will have to do that from now on.

i work at 5 tonight.

i thought i was going to be productive today. i wasn't :(

hmm

i fixed my purse and dropped off negatives to get reprints of.

i got the pleasure of seeing brian at chesterfields tonight ....

i got home in enough time to watch big brother

hmmm

dad went to the doctors today and didn't get oked to go to work tomorrow. he can't start until monday.
we r going to go to chesterfields for lunch tomorrow or thursday.

now dad has to do all kindsa disabliity paperwork

today

i went shopping and bought bunches of stuff.
SmilinColleen: i bought:
SmilinColleen:

3 pairs black socks
brown sandals for 4 bucks but not dressyish
short sleeve purple shirt liek the long sleve one i got over spring break
hair emergency kit ( pony tail holders, more , bobby pins, barettes, and clippies (small ones))
lip gloss
an expandigin wallet with 13 pockets to organize scrapbook
SmilinColleen: that should be shift enter
SmilinColleen: fun wire
crayons
the movie dick to prove to u there is one (actually i forgot i bought that i just saw it now)
2 dvds opf beverly hillbillies (16 episodes)
simply irresistible
drive me crazy
SmilinColleen: oops

SmilinColleen: shift enter


SmilinColleen:
cardstock
4 notebooks
eyeshadow



yay for me .... but not yay to spendign money

the dentist was quick today. work was alright. my gram's car broke down. i took pictures of the tow truck. i did a little magazine cutting for scrapbooking.

ahhh

stupid foot. stupid stupid foot. bad pain. it was ok for about the first 10 hours of work. i worked a little over 11 and made 78 bucks in tips. i only made that much becuase it was a busy dinner. i made practically nothing for brunch.
i think i have to give up running for a good while. it sucks. i want to run so bad.
i'm so tired. i have dentist at 9:20 tomorrow morning.

ahhh

i declare my work shoes suck, even tho i don't know if that is why my foot hurts. i work tomorrow at 10 now. 10-8 is when I'm scheduled.

my foot is noticably bad again. to the touch and just looking at it. so when will i be able to actually run. i ran today. my foot didn't hurt then. this sucks. it's been over a month. the dr said to call if it still hurt in 2 weeks. hmmm

i may get 40 hours this week. i will if they don't call me off.

today was my cousin's graduation party. lisa liked how we just sat in a corner and nobody talked to us.
I tried to post this last night sometime around 11:30 but it wouldn't post

today

today:
run
giant eagle
shower
grad party
work

and dad comes home

grrr

i worked 9.98 hours today.

my foot is in a great deal of pain. i do not have off on sunday anymore.

hmmm

last night at 11, chris from work called and wanted me to come in at 10 today instead of 11. so i did. i worked 10 - 2 then i work at 5 again tonight.
tomorrow i told them i can't make it until 6. but that is good since i was supposed to have off. i am off on sunday though. i work here and there and sometimes twice a day during the week.
saturday is my cousin's graduation party. but i don't know how things will work with that because things aren't so well with my dad.

ahhh

when my dad got to hospital his heart rate was 110 and for him that his super fast. my dad is worse today. he was shaking for over half hour. my mom thinks that was definitly shock. now he is on a venelation machine. originally he thought he would be out today. today he is even worse from yesterday. yesterday was worse from the day before. he doesn't even know if he will be out by the end of the weekend. he cancelled his cleveland trip. they put him on more medicine. he is supposed to call my mom back. we learned this when they were on the phone and he had to get off because a dr came in. so more info later

today

i worked a bit. came home, mom left, dad called, mom came home. i talked to dad on the phone for a half hour or so. i actually learn stuff talking to him. His leg is all red today. Yes worse than yesterday. It hurts when he walks. they put him on a second antibiotic because of his not getting better. his blood pressure is up to 110 over 60. he doesn't think there is a chance he will go home tomorrow anymore. he gets lonely and bored. i feel bad. i want to visit, but mom won't go. He doesn't have a roommate anymore. The other guy was released.

today

it was soooo dead tonight. i only made 30 bucks. i worked about 4 and a half hours. i only had 1 table at a time. i did have a big section though. maybe they are getting more faith in me.

my comptuer hates me. it won't work. it is going to be shut down for a bit and i hope it fixes itself. even though i know it won't.

dad

i went in to visit dad today. i didn't work during lunch. he has cellulitus. his phosphorus and magnesium levels are low. his is not allowed out of bed all day today because his blood pressure is so low. it is something over 30. yes 30 not the normal 80. they told him he would be in the hospital 2 or 3 days. He is worring about little stuff; such as if we ate the two buns that we had before they go bad.

more

mom called the hospital. the workers aren't allowed to tell her anything. she got to talk to my dad. he has an infection. a really bad infection in his leg. it is still spreading. it has moved to the lower leg. they have him on antibiotics through ivs. they didn't do anything to his head for the abraision. forbes was full and that was the reason he wen to AGH. we aren't going in until morning sometime. His heart is perfectly fine so that is good.

more

after we found him lying on the floor there was a welt on th eleft side of his head and we later learned that the back of his head was grazed and that was bleeding. he thought that he let himself to the floor easy cuz he felt lightheaded. but we know otherwise. he didnt think he was on the floor for 20 minutes either. i wonder how long he was out and how bad that is for him. i dont 'know how my mom is falling asleep at this moment. about 10 to 20 more minutes before she calls the ER to find out what is wrong with him. i am so worried.

o my god

a lesson is learned. when you hear a loud boom and u know it wasn't your brother go investigate. timmy found my dad lying on the kitchen floor with some blood beside him. he passed out and hit his head somewhere. he wasn't feeling well since he went walking with me earlier today. he walked and i ran. he hurt his groin then. while driving, he started to have a hot flash or so he thought. but then he didn't look good at all walking into the house. i went and told mom. he was shivering later. we thought he fell asleep. we thought it was some reaction to his new medicine. he got up to go to the bathroom and he said he felt all dizzy but made it. then at 12:30 he got up to take his medicine. that is when we heard the boom. over 20 minutes later is when timmy found him. then he woke up my mom and we called the doctor. then called the ambulance. he was being taken to forbes regional hospital. next mom and i headed out to forbes. we got to forbes and the lady there said she had the initals jc of someone that was in ambulance that was diverted to allegheny general hospital (AGH). mom thought he was diverted because his heart surgery doctor is down there but i thought it was because he got worse in the ambulance. we came home after forbes. while at forbes we called and he hadn't made it to AGH yet. mom knew he would need stuff taken down there and that they wouldn't know how he was doing for awhile. after we got home she called AGH and he was just admitted and they said they wouldnt' know what was going on for an hr to an hr an a half. mom then called my aunt to let her know because my gram is also there now. mom tried to go to sleep for an hr or so and she wants to leave to go to the hospital around 5. i work at 11 and possibly 5 tomorrow. but once we find out anything and chesterfields is open then i am going to call and see what i can do to fix that. dad is more important than any old hours at work. mom keeps saying that he should have never gone to the track with me. my dad is only 52!

how can i sleep when i feel that it was my fault for having him walk while i ran at the track and than also not going to find out what that loud noise was.

i feel that burning behind my eyes that i get when i'm stressed and/or worried.

here i am

work actually wanted me to work more not less and i had to get home so timmy could have the car. usually they send me home early. grrr i wish i had more hours.

grrrr

today i was asked if i could stay late and then later i was actually told to go home early...
hours = good = money

yup

pain
soreness
work
grrr
hours
anger
hate
grrr
argh

sigh

i sleep my day away. then i go to work. then i come home talk on aim and to dave on the phone then off to sleep. repeat. this is weekend schedule if i don't work until late.

i need a life. yes yes i do.

ahh

work is not so fun. it was soooo hot by the hostess podium. i was so busy. they were short on servers. and i missed big brother yet again. how disappointing. i wonder if my mom taped it for me.

hmm

i slept the day away

i didn't work and i slept a lot. i did buy 2 new lighters and a butane refill.

now

work was sooo sooo sooo boring tonight
i'm starving

work schedule

part of the schedule is done starting the week of the 18th (friday)
so far i'm:
friday 11- and 5-
sat 5-
wed 5-
thurs 5-

wow

you know what's so crazy
guess what i found in my apron today
a receipt
an olive garden receipt
from may 1
when i was up at school w/ no apron near me

not the receipt that i showed dave from that day that was in my purse. this one did not have maggie's signature like the one that was in my purse.

nice paycheck but not as nice as it should have been. becuase i lost over 20 hours because of my foot. 360 buck paycheck. tonight i was a hostess then a server than a hostess again. i made 20 bucks from 2 tables. One table was of 8 people the other of 2. the two top gave an ok tip and the 8 top gave only about 12.5 percent. and they got water and crap like that. so i shoulda had even more than 15% if they were nice people. i got cheated out of tables at work because they made me go back and be hostess.

work

today 5
thursday 11- and 5-
friday 5-
saturday 5-
sunday 9:30-8
monday - thursday all 11-2 and possible nights

argh

i don't want to go to sleep. i don't want to be awake. i'm getting sick of actions of some people (even if these actions happened awhile ago and i just learned about them recently). i'm not sure what to do. i don't feel like doing anything at the moment. i keep fighting tears. i have so much to do. i have many things that i want to get done but i just don't want to do any of them. i wish it was a week ago. i wish i was able to relax.

today

train was to leave at 8:45. it was delayed indefinitely along with everyother train. the train in front of mine hit somebody....silliness. at 10:30 we borded. 10:37 - we left and learned they took the cafe off the end of the train
i read for a little then woek up at 12:12 then at 1:05 we stopped we had to stop for a bit probably for a train to pass. i was on pagew 127 at this time. at 1:30 i finished the nancy drew book (all 180 pages). at 1:52 we were at the lewistown stop. i only learned the actual reason we were delayed at 2pm. at 2:20 i realized i left dirty dancing at dave's house. at 2:45 i woke up from nap. then i sat there for a bit and woke up again at 4:20. I got back a little bit after 5 instead of at 3:57. now i'm home and mom is cooking and timmy is going to get a shower. the water is gonna turn cold on him when the use it to cook...hah
i miss being with dave :(

argh

tomorrow the heat index is supposed to be about 100 degrees................................... yuck

today i was at a huge mall. king of prussia. but it closed early so i only made it through about half the mall. i was quite disappointed. plus i hear there is another building too. we didn't even make it ot that one. i did buy some stuff though. dave shopped with me :)

yup

yesterday we ended up not going to acme because dinner at dave's mom's was to be had. we did go to acme on the way home though, but it closed 10 minutes after we got there so we didn't get anything. we are about to go to pizza hut.

soon

we are almost ready to go to acme. it was going to be to get breakfast but it's gettin kinda late now. i'm not sure what we'll end up getting. i wanted to get actual food and cook tonight but we can't think of anything we want to make.

today

we were on our way to philly. things didn't go as planned. a lot later we were at the parking garage. then we walked a lot and saw the liberty bell. then we walked to the river. then took the subway back to the car. 16 bucks to park for less than 4 hours!

here

well i'm here. i forgot to post yesterday. we haven't done that much. today i got to watch my soaps after krispy kreme and the park.

my train was 20 minutes late yesterday. we were ahead of schedule going into harrisburg. we had to wait there for a good while. some guy sat down beside me and talked. it was crazy. i was so cold on the train so i coudl'nt sleep and then i got out my computer to warm my legs with the heat coming from it.

argh for work

work sucks. i did get to serve again. but that was cuz they were stuck. i didn't get many tables or anything so i didn't like it. barb got mad i punched in as a hostess even tho it says hostess on teh schedule. she told me i need special permission from now on to punch in as a hostess even tho i was on the schedule twice as a hostess.


i'm so excited. i leave tomorrow morning... :)

argh again

work changed the schedule once they hired all these new people. it drives me crazy. so now today i only work 3-8 instead of 11-8. it pisses me off. i was so tired this morning and i rushed to get ready. i really hate that place. i figure everyone hates their jobs and some are just worse than others. i think mine is really bad. the turnover is like a week and new people are coming in.

today

i didn't work!
i went to visit Rachel's apartment and it was cool

i'm like a little kid and so excited. i have to pack and stuff.

ahhh

we got some pain goin on here

work is horrible. they are so unorganized. they r crazy

argh

they sent me home from work early. i'm not on at all tomorrow. they really know how to give me the hours.

foot

i'm not quick like a fox anymore. i probably shouldn't work very long tomorrow. i will anyway though. i need hours. i don't need the pain. i don't need to ruin my chances of running in the future. this is pretty bad. why does everything have to happen to me. everyone keeps asking me if i hurt my foot at work. i bet i did but i'm not sure. i know it got worse at work. argh too bad i dont' have one of those easy jobs that i sit down all day and get paid lunches and also get paid more.

work

i'm good at working short days to make foot heal. only 9.5ish today. i did pick up a few tables while i was hostess. pocketed 25 bucks in an hr and a half. they have been packed this week becuase of the coupons in clipper magazine. i almost had a thrid table but they wouldnt' let me take a table outside. even after i took their order and everything. i still haven't found out if i passed the server test. i assume yes or they wouldn't have me serve today. but who knows. they probably didn't even look at it yet. tomorrow i work 11-2 and 5-10(or 11 or 12)

well i'm on the phone so i'll write more later

hmmm

well i worked for 3 hours today and i have to go back at 4:15. they still haven't even looked at the server test that i took. so i don't know how long before i find out how i did. my guess is never. one can only hope. today lunch was busier than it has ever been before. well busiest since i've been back anyway. my foot is being iced at the moment.

so far i'm only on the schedule sunday 11-8. banquet from 11-3 and hostess 3-8

yay

shopping was done twice today. i went to kmart and then kohl's with my mom. then after dinner and some tv, i went to fashion bug, world of values, and kohl's. I bought a bunch of stuff and spent too much money. it's just not fair. i just got another paycheck and it isn't even deposited yet and i spent some of it. i was plannign on spending less than half my money I make this summer. I'm only 50 cents off from half now. Too bad it was spending 50 cents too much. and i'm visiting dave for a week before my next paycheck. i have to conserve!

i work 11-2 and 5-9 on thursday too what fun

i went out to "dinner" with mallory after work tonight. We talked forever. tons of fun.

work

i worked. 3 hours. foot in some pain. not as bad as before. but if i didn't know that bad pain i would say this is painful. i work again at 5.

how come i can't get two 40 hour weeks on the same paycheck. i went over 40 w/ 8 hrs and over 40 with 16 hours and now over 40 and this week which will be about 10

333 buck paycheck

stuff

June 30 – July 8 I will be visiting Dave! We will be visiting Andrew one day while I’m there. We have a list of things we want to do. I bet we won't get to a lot of them and that we will think of new stuff to do while i'm there. My duffle bag is still filled with stuff from school. My laziness is setting in. Maybe there's another handy dufflebag that i can use in this house. I have to go shopping before I go because I don’t have any shorts that fit. My mom won’t let me go anywhere though or do anything just because of my stupid foot. I went to the dentist today for some kind of sealant. Then I went to Gram’s. She took me out to lunch. She wanted me to order so much. How much does she think one person can eat? I decided to go with a pizza because I knew the family would like leftovers. Mom ate 4 pieces so I was right. I am going back to the dentist to get a retainer made and he’s going to fix my top retainer so it fits. Timmy's teeth are straigther than mine and he didn't have braces at all. I had braces for three and a half years.
I’m so disgusted that I can’t run for awhile.

foot

i keep telling my mom i'm quick like a fox but she doens't believe me.

work made me go in but then when i gave her the doctors excuse she said i had to leave. so i had to wait until my mom got home for her to come back to pick me up.

before i left i walked to the request off folder. right above that a sign was posted that said "no request offs for July 4" and then i fill out a sheet that i need off from june 30 - july 8. nothing i can do about it.

i have resorted to reading today. all day until about 15 minutes ago i was internetless. :(

lifetime

i'm so thankful for lifetime movies. they have kept me bored out fo my mind today and kept the day going by not extremly slow. yesterday took a year to be over. and this movie ends at 9 and from 9-11 there is another one to watch. go lifetime. next i will try 502 becuase it's lifetime original movies all the time.

argh

i feel helpless. i feel bad making my family get stuff for me. i want to be able to be normal again

pain

constant hurting. the ice doesn't help. i have crutches now. i am bored out of my mind.

stuff

a picture and an article that is related to me

medicine

correction it is anti-inflammatory

ahhh

chesterfields just called and asked if i could work at all because the hostess quit. hahahaha. i sorta feel bad for them though. i told them i would work on sunday at 3. i am callling tomorrow. this sucks bad tho.... my stupid foot.

o the pain

I can't work until Tuesday. I am to rest. The x-ray results will be learned in 3 business days. She perscribed me some medicine. I think plantar fasciitis is what she called it. I have a paper with excercises to do and stuff but that is downstairs and i'm not going to go get it. I was also given a perscription. It's naproxen the generic for naprosyn. a 500mg tabled to take twice a day. it's the same as i had for my jaw. so i know it's for pain and not inflamation. If it still bothers me in a few weeks I am to go back.
in the packet i got it has excercises for me to do and it says that the worst pain is in the morning and that is correct.

foot

o my god. my foot is getting worse by the day. it hurts so bad. i was limping this morning. i called work and i'm not going in today. i still have a scheduled 10 hour day tomorrow. i won't even work 30 hours this week. i wanted two 40 hour weeks on the same paycheck. o well. i put bengay on my foot this morning. let's hope that works.

today

i tried to stay off my foot. i soaked it. i iced it. i rested it a bunch. i'm not limping as bad today. it's only a little puffy and bruised. it better get better asap.

11 days

yay

I'll be arriving at 2:50 in Philadelphia. I asked both of my parents about it. Neither seemed too thrilled but neither told me out right no so i just bought the tickets. Yay for AAA discount. Still 63 bucks round trip. I didn't want to make my parents that mad so I'm not staying for an extreme amount of time.

yay

trian tickets have been ordered for June 30!

argh

i don't work tomorrow because of overtime. at 1:45 I was forced to punch out because of it. Then i had to stay for server training at 2. and it started late and it lasted forever and she didn't even go over all the stuff on the server test. that server test is impossible. crazy let me tell you. also the arch of my foot is in such pain.

they don't let me work the last day of my schedule just becuase i worked 43 hours this week.

*screaming*

my foot is in such pain!

argh

work is way too unorganized. i worked from 11-3 today and they told me to come back at 5 to be a waitress but at 5 i came back and they made me be hostess. that is mean of them. getting my hopes up and dashing them. i got the servers test. i have ot take it before i can be on the floor serving for real. it's 9 pages long. the questions are crazy

ugh

so i got two referals at the doctors and neithe rof the doctors that the referals are for will see me. they hate me, that's all it is, now i have to find new doctors

work

in 4 days i averaged 8 hours a day. funny thing is 2 of those days i had a little over three hours. 3.31 today

for the last hour or so i was at work today i was lightheaded. i kept pretending to clean out the podium so i would be all bent over and stuff.

sigh

today i did some actual serving. i wish i was more prepared though. ahhh the pain. it would have been a better day if i wasn't dead at minute one. usually that doens't kick in until hour 10 or so. she only told me minutes before rather seconds before i was to take the table at dinner. and as i walked in this mornign she told me to come there and showed me which tables i had. talk about no warning.
today was an adventure. yesterday was worse
daisy is annoying me by crying at me. i dont' like ti. she should behave.

argh

i thought last week was bad. with today and yesterday i worked over 25 and a quarter hours. and i'm sooo tired cuz i worked hard.

sigh

i only worked 15.03 hours today

twice stolen survey

1. What color are your kitchen plates? they got some white and then some flowers i think
2. What book are you reading now? like i have time to read
3. What is on your mouse pad?..laptop = lack of mouspad
4. What is your favorite board game? paracheesy and i can't even spell it
5. Favorite magazine? newsweek has a better font than teen for my scrapbooking
6. Favorite smell?.my smeller isn't the best and i cna't think of a good one now
7. Least favorite smell?skunk seems like a common answer
8. What is the first thing you think of in the morning? during school = yuck i have to get ready for class and go, beginning of summer was = argh work lately = i wonder if i'll go walking mom today before work
9. Favorite color?.purple
10.Least favorite color?.hmmm ... depends on the circumstance
11.How many rings before you answer the phone? as soon as it shows up on caller id if it's for me if not i don't answer at all most of the time
12.Future Child's Name? i would like to make those decisions with a husband at a later date
13.What is most important in life?happiness
14.chocolate or vanilla?.vanilla of course
15.Do you like to drive fast?.sometimes
16.Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?.no
17.Storms--Cool or Scary? cool
18.What type was your first car? i haven't owned a car yet. first car i drove was a 1990 oldsmobile. i think it only had about 100,000 miles when i started driving it.
19.If you could meet one person, dead or alive?.i dont know
20.Favorite alcoholic drink?none
21.What is your sign and birthday? libra and september 30, 1983
22.Do you eat the stems of Broccoli?yes but less than a year ago i didn't eat broccoli at all
23.If you could have any job what would it be?i dont know
24.If you could have any color hair what would it be? same as it is now
25.Is the glass 1/2 full or 1/2 empty? depends if filling it our emptying it and if it's just sittin there depends on my mood
26.Favorite Movie? i like a lot. dirty dancing is always on top lately i have really wanted to watch fried green tomatoes
27.Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?if my words make sense i do
28.What is under your bed?pillows, beads, hemp, string, yarn, baby food bottles, makeup, folders, bags, lotions, and... enough that makes it so nothing else cna fit under or stuff comes out the other side. i am too lazy to get off my bed and look
29.What is your favorite number? it's always been 13
30.Favorite sport on TV?ummm i havn't a clue
31.What is your single biggest fear? failing i guess
32.Say one nice thing about the person who sent you this... i also stole it so being sent done'st count
33.Person most likely to respond to this?dave is filling it out now
34.Person least likely to respond to this?.... everyone else
35.Favorite CD?my theme songs cd. the only cd i've listened to. well i haven't listened to the whole thing
36.Favorite TV shows?....i love lucy, bewitched, leave it to beaver, i dream of jeanie, the odd couple, andy griffith, gomer pile, dick van dyke (tv land is awesome)
37.Ketchup or Mustard?..........ketchup.
38.Hamburgers or Hotdogs?.....i like them both. especially if someone else is making them for me
39.Favorite soft drink?.......sprite but i dont' really drink pop
40.The best place you have ever been?....i dunno
41.What screensaver is on your computer right now?.....my picture screen saver of course
42.Burger King or McDonalds?......Burger King has better burgers but if i'm only hungry for fries it depends which direction i'm going (they are on opposite sides of the road and i would go to the easiest one to turn into)

i finished

10 random thoughts

1. i like to be busy
2. i love pictures
3. drunk people make work more intersting
4. there's nothing good on tv at this time of night
5. i sometimes enjoy the craziness of work
6. i miss not having work over my head all the time
7. i wish i could run more
8. i wish i didn't have a gut
9. i wonder what music sounds like to everyone else
10. i sleep with a fan on every single night when i'm at home but at school i never used one

i counted my money earlier
12 - ones
it's not all together
1 - five
4-ones

2 -twentys
3-tens
5-fives
3-ones

2-fives

then i made a bank for work. (bank is the change i take to work)
i then realized i wanted coins too. i forgot that i should be collecting it. so i only ended up with.
4 quarters
6 dimes
2 nickels
1 penny

i made my bank for work with 40 bucks then added all coins


i wish i wasn't sick when i was packing at school. i can't find some of my stuff and i hope it's not in boxes i didn't unpack. i put too much small stuff in the top of boxes to fill the boxes.

money

so i thought i would try to only spend half as much as i make this summer. well so far i am only up 37 bucks from spending all of what i made so far. and it's over a week until payday. at least i got to make a cool excel file to figure out my money.

doctors

This morning an appointment was made with my PCP Dr. Raja. That appointment ended up also being today. i just got back. she gave a me a new perscrption and two referrals. one referral is with dr becker for some endocrin testing. we don't to see her but there is nothing we can do about it. then i got a referral for dr kahn for my jaw. i have seen him in the past. he was so nice. i hope he can help and figure something to be done but i bet they won't be able to tell anything. The bad part is that my jaw isn't that bad now, so it's hard to describe things and hard for them to fix it when it's good. i also have to look some stuff up on the internet. Dr Raja is the only one at the practice that is a DO instead of an MD. time to find out what one of those is.

work

i worked 41 hours this week. they wanted me to stay longer but i said i was going to lunch. i was only scheduled two days next week. so i asked about that. after a little bit, i was told that i was supposed to hostess during the day. then i got out my black pen and added me 11-2 on wed thurs and fri. then i went to ask if they wanted me then or everday. "I want you here everyday" so then i broke out the pen and added me mon. and tes. so now i work all 7 days. probably for about 33 hours. that's sort of not fair. since i work 3 hours during the day i miss out on 8 hours during the night.

i need to go running today. my abs hurt when i cough. probably from so many crunches.

movie

i went to see "down with love" tonight. i dont't know how that movie is rated pg. the premise was you don't need love and u can just have sex.

i did fall asleep for a bit. but then i came to.

work

i remembered to get my paycheck.
gross pay 374.44 because of overtime my first week
but after taxes 301.88. my next paycheck will be small

track

so when i was at the track tonight, the lights around the track weren't on. the lights were on around the school. i could only see my dad about 9/10 of the time. it made it go faster i think, because i thought about seeing him and not running. i wonder why the lights weren't on.

o my

i just realized i went shopping two days in a row with my mom and it was her idea.

tests

today i tested two things at the same time. i tested my new shoes and the new high school track. both seemed to be alright. i ran pretty slow.
after lap one ~ 2:10
after lap two ~ 4:30
after lap three ~ 7:00
after lap four ~ 9:30 (then i talked to dad while jogging slowly for a little)
after lap five ~ 12:30
after lap six~ 15:30 then jogged to dad which ended at 16:05
that was pretty slow. i didn't keep pace all that well. the first day is always the hardest though.

then we went to giant eagle right after. i went with my dad. he walked and i jogged. my face was red as always when i finished.

today

i went to the see dr. pollack at children's hospital. he said nothing has changed and the adenoma is still 7mm or so. he's making me go back to that stupid endocrinologist for testing. mom is calling about that tomorrow. i'm calling to make a dentist appointment tomorrow too. i'm also waking up at 9 to go walking mom. i want to try to get used to waking up early before i start running. i got new running shoes today. so i'm set for cross country. i just need spikes now. i also got a pair of earrings. i wouldn't even go and look at the clothes becuase i knew i would want to buy some. i also went to goodwill and got one more work shirt. it will be easier with that one. one or two more and my life would be easy.

i asked mom today when i should go visit dave and she told me she didn't even want to hear it. i don't think that was a good sign at all. i miss him.

timmy just talked to dave on the phone for 20 minutes

work is my life

my hopes were dashed today becuase barb said i was there from 11-11. then i said that i wasn't scheduled all day. then i asked if i could dial out to say i wouldn't be home for dinner. then she realized there were a lot of people on for that night. she then said i could leave after this this and this. well then she added more stuff to do. if i was there 11-11 then i would have kept up the being at work more than being home theme. i knew my family was going to go out to dinner. i was trying to get off work before they left so i could call them. i was trying to sneak to dial out before i was done so they would know to wait. that didn't work. i punched out at the same time that they pulled out of the driveway. as soon as i got to the van, i called home and got the machine. i was all mad becuase i thought then i could have just worked. but i was soooo hungry. the last few hours at work, i had that empty pit in my stomach. i haven't felt that hungry in a long time. but when i got home, there was a note on the kitchen table saying where they went. i joined them. i had to wait longer for my food and the waiter wasn't all that good.

today barb asked me when i was leaving for school. then she looked like she was pondering it. then later she told me "i'm gonna train to you be an alacart server" which made me happy. sometimes the money isn't all that good becuase buisness is bad but sometimes it is really good. i hope i get trained this week so i can wait tables on father's day. but actually last year i was going to serve on father's day and i wasn't an alacart server. so i bet i will be put on the schedule for father's day unless they want me for hostess. argh you never know with chesterfields. i just have to wait and see.

i realized that i'm at work more than at home. because i have to drive that takes away from time in day to be home or at work.

about 15 min shy of a 12 hr day again.
today was a good day then horrible day then it ended well.
i'm still mad about the way the place is run.

laurel told me somethin i didn't quite wanna hear today.

ugh

we'll go with work royally sucked. worst ever. at least i dont' have to be there for almost 11 hours.

work

so i asked work yesterday if they wanted me in tonight for the wedding. they said no. but today they want ot know if i can work at 5. they ask when i work 11-2 ... well i worked 11-3. so i get 2 hours off and go back for liek 6 hours.

but barb did talk to judy about making me a waitress outside. outside is different than inside and a little harder but also sometimes not many people eat outside. i wonder if i will actually get ot wait tables though or if it was just talk.

work

so i would have had less than 10 hrs of work this week if i didn't go in for that slacker kelly. i still barely got any hours. i attempted to talk to barb about serving. she said to talk to her tomorrow. chris the new manager (well a month or so) thinks i should serve.

tonight

was fun. there were 10 people total here. some came late and some left early though. i took pictures throughout the evening. not too many though becuase they yell at me. we just talked the whole time and told stories about school. now they all left and i am not sure what to do. i should put things away. i think that is what i will do. but that's not fun at all.

well

today i went in to work and they had another hostess. so they send me home. i get like no hours aymore and she said she would give me lots. they better not steal any of my days away next week. i really want to talk to her about ala cart serving. This week I will work 4 shifts and only get about 14 hours. Work is crazy. I wish there were jobs elsewhere. so now dave doesn't have a job. that's just crazy. i didn't get much sleep last night and i went back to sleep after my first alarm. i actually woek up on my own at 9:58 checked when my alarm was going to go off (10:04) so i went back to sleep. then after that went off i went back to sleep again and had to wait for second one ot go off. then i woek up at 10:15 and all my alarms went off way before that so i guess i went back to sleep again. I woke up early for nothing.

my schedule

Wed 11
Thurs 11-2 5-8
Fri 11
Sat 4
Sun 11
Mon off
Tues 11-2
Wed 11-2
Thus 11-2
all quitting times are rough.
that's a lot of days with very few hours!!

running

i just e-mailed coach tory since he didn't seem to respond in any way to kate's e-mail to him about me. i regretted not running but i won't like being the slowest person on the team and hills really kill me. i think probably either way, i'll regret what i choose to do. i really want to get back into shape. i feel like a bum now. next year i have a little gym in my dorm. that should be fun. but there isnt' that much good equipment so i probably won't use it very much. right now i feel very motivated to get back into shape and build my muscle back up. too bad it's raining so i can't go out running now. i think it's good that i start work at 11 am practically everyday because then if i get motivated i could run before work. and once summer rec starts for cross country i could go to that from 8-10 and then still make it to work on time. i would have to go to sleep early though. that might be a little hard. but i could get used to it. hey last summer i worked everyday at 7am and was just fine.